Fatini and Tantrums...

She'd turned 5, just yesterday and I thought once and for all, all her tantrums have finally come to an end, but.... *******heaving a huge sigh***** 

I was wrong...

Just this morning Fatini threw one of her best tantrum again, ahah, and many times, all her tantrums were baseless!

Fatini and her inferiority complex behavior sometimes drives me nuts! Is it really inferiority complex?

1~~ She refused to talk at Kindergarten, and often her teacher would persuade her to talk, and she got all stressed-out that eventually lead to tantrums.

2~~ About a month ago, she refused to wear a hat and a shawl and gloves for fearing people would notice her for the cute stuffs she's wearing, and being a mother who have had enough arguments with her, I just let her until her teacher started complaining that she needed a hat and a shawl...

So I told her teacher, Fatini has all that at home but she refused to put it on, and she gave me this look that says, "Are you the boss or your daughter is?"

Ok, ok, so the next day I brought a shawl and a hat and gloves, put them on Fatini's shelf, and bear another tantrum from her all morning because she didn't want to put them on but her teacher would force her, that's what she said...

And yes, she was forced to put them on because it was cold, and when I reached kindergarten to pick her up, I was 5 minutes early and all the kids were playing outside, and there I saw Fatini standing alone, with a hat and her shawl around her neck, did nothing at all but just cover her face with both hands...

Sedih pun ade, nak tergelak pun ade hehehe

And two days ago, just before her Birthday, she threw another tantrum because she hated her Birthday, and that she didn't want them (people in Kindergarten) to celebrate her Birthday!!

The weird Fatini but very special hehe..

Nevertheless, I don't wanna argue with Fatini no more, I learnt from her Kindergarten teachers that Fatini is a queen and that she needed to be forced sometimes if coaxing and persuasion didn't work.

Hehehe... On the way back from Kindergarten today!

Funny, I arrived 5 minutes early again today, spot her and waved.

She quickly jumped and cover her face, looked at me again and cover her face once more..

Later I asked her, why did she cover her face when she saw me outside the fence.

She answered,

"Fatini malu, tak nak orang tengok Fatini senyum..."

Pulak dah... haaaiiihhhh macam2...

Ape ape je lah Fatini... hehehe...

(",)

Day 26~~~ SoMeTHiNg OLd...

Salam...

I have nothing really really old with me here in Germany, but since the title is just something old, and it did not mention how old it should be, then I consider something from 8 years ago as something quite old? 

I have with me here my first pregnancy test; a first pregnancy test for a first pregnancy (",)

My sister gave me this kit, I told her my period was delayed by almost a week when she was about to go out shopping and she returned home with the test kit in her hand hehe.. so sweet of her..

She bought the good one so it could give me an accurate result and yes it was positive as expected and that was Afeef in my womb (",)

So I still keep it till today and every time I look at it,

I just...... smile... (",)

And also my first maternity card, owhh... those memories... 

And on the right, is our old photo together; me, hubby and little Afeef when he was about one week old..

mmmmmmmm...

Don't say anything...

I know I look 'gebu' hehehe!!

Oh we'll get a lil bit 'gebu' from time to time, it's part of Life... (oh excuses....)

Hey.... Life's Like That...

(",)

HaPpy 5th BiRThDaY DEaResT FaTiNi... (",)

Today, 30th January, is Fatini's Birthday!

Yes, 5 Years Old....

5 Years of bitter-sweet moments together....

Bitter moments that made me realize ~~ How challenging motherhood is...

Sweet moments that made me realize ~~ Motherhood is the most beautiful, wonderful thing... 

Ever....

And yes, Fatini is so special in her own way... (",)

This photo was taken at Fatini's kindergarten today (",)

Geburtstag means, Birthday!!

There's not much to say...

Just a song that best describe how I'm feeling right now...

I played this song specially for my kids, wholeheartedly....

(With lyrics):

(Without lyrics):

"I wanna call the stars, down from the sky,

I wanna live a day that never dies,

I wanna change the world, only for you...

All the impossible, I wanna do.."

I wanna hold you close under the rain,

I wanna kiss your smile and feel the pain,

I know what's beautiful, looking at you,

I a world of a lies, you are the truth...

And baby, every time you touch me, 

I become a Hero,

I'll make you safe no matter where you are,

And bring you anything you ask for, 

Nothing is above me,

I'm shining like a candle in the dark,

When you tell me that you Love me...."

(",)

Day 25~~~ SuNfLaRe....

(",)

Day 24~~~ A SmiLe... (",)

A Smile...

Yang last ni cam smile sexy pulak nampak hehehe..

Till tomorrow, Salam... 

(",)

Day 23~~~ SuNSeT..

Salam...

These remaining 8 days of a Photo challenge really is a huge challenge hehe..

Why?

Because there were days when I was just soooooo not in the mood to write!

Because I have other projects, that's why hehehe...

Nevertheless, I can't quit, I have to complete this challenge. 

So, here goes, 

Sunset....

Cantik kan??

Never before, my whole life in Malaysia was I able to capture such a wonderful view just by the window...

I'll miss this someday... badly in fact (",)

Everyday I say, Subahanallah...

Everyday, the sky has something to offer, something for me to gaze at, and make me realize again and again how great God is (",)

And this one, perhaps a once in a life time experience...

Captured last Summer at Lake Bodensee...

mmmmm.... yang blur2 tu faham2 je la hehehe...

Ok, till tomorrow,

Salam...

(",)

Aleena's New Habit...(",)

(",)

Day 22~~~ Trees...

Salam...

Today's story, Trees...

Unique...

Mesmerizing....

Memorable...

Till tomorrow...

Salam...

(",)

Day 21~~~ PReTty PaTTeRn..

Salam...

Oh my, I almost forgot to update day 21 haha!

Still is in Anniversary mood (",) and Fatini's birthday is coming soon, so I've been busy thinking about It hehehe!! Well, January has always been a busy month!

Ok, lets get straight to the point, today's story, Pretty pattern (",)

Lets make it short too, because I'm going to bed shortly and tomorrow a friend will come over, and I'm going to make Durian crepe again... Remember, it was tedious... And I need to start early tomorrow.. Fuuuuhhh sampai camtu ke?

Ok, I found anything with tulips printed on it pretty.. So this pattern is pretty..

Yes pretty...

Ok, that's all hehe..

Till tomorrow... (",)

Day 20~~~ WHaT I REaD....

Salam...

What I read....

mmmmm... Lets see....

Basically, I read everyday... little if not much...

Mostly were online materials, like...

News, Blogs, Articles...

Eh... Baca blog sendiri ke? (Gambar sekadar hiasan hehe)

I read friends blog everyday, and starting to read articles too about worldly issues, histories, health care, etc etc.. in short, bahan bacaan ilmiah laaa hahaha...

I realized that I'm too far behind, there's too much that I don't know..

But then I realized again, the more I read, the more I know I don't know...

 Eh betul ke ayat tu?

mmmm... hubby always told me,

"Read read read read and read..... because knowledge has no end..."

Actually, not just hubby, my mom had also said the same thing, because before, I read only novels..

Yes that's right, only novels... 

So, now it's time to start reading all kinds of reading materials... 

Especially now when everything is just a 'click' away (",)

***sigh***

And..

Recently, Hubby asked me to read this book:

Hubby said, 

Many of us claimed that we love our Prophet Muhammad SAW, but how much do we really know about him?

Or care to know?

Ok..... I'll start reading this too... (",)

Have a nice and lovely wekend everyone...

Salam..

It's been 9 Years... (",)

Salam....

Actually, this is my very important entry for the day...

24th January is our Anniversary... (",)

It's been 9 years since the day we tied the knot... 

And 10 years of togetherness (",)

There's not much to say, because words can't describe my feelings right now...

Just wanna share a little story...

Before we were married, during our 'getting to know each other' period, hubby often gave me a cactus, I had always wondered at that time, 

"How come I never got Roses, or Tulips or Sunflowers?" 

Hahaha! How unromantic of him!!

But now I realized, actually it was a perfect plant as it represents beauty in its own way and it also symbolizes strength, unlike other beautiful flowers which look so beautiful at  first sight and die within two weeks, cactus last longer, and with proper care, it could really grow inside your house!!

I guess, that's how hubby's love for me, just like that cactus, it could die someday but it won't give in so easily.. 

mmmm...
Actually not really quite the same, because cactus will die eventually, but the love we have for someone might never dies...

So, it's not really quite a comparison..

But.. I'm still glad hubby gave me those cacti (",)

So today, I played this song for hubby... 

It's our song, I sang for him once haha...
I guess it really touched his heart (",)

"The smile on your face lets me know that you need me, 
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me, 
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever I fall...
You say it best, when you say nothing at all..."



And this one, I played from my heart...
I've always loved this song..
"Without You by Mariah Carey..."

"I can't live, if living is without you..."

Hubby had once said, it would be a lie if he ever says he can't live without me, because if we lose someone we love, life goes on, we have to move on, but... 

life won't be the same and it would be hard to deal with.. (",)

Words and promises which we might not be able to keep are not something that makes us move on and fear not what lies ahead, but it's the confidence and faith we have, for Allah will never let us down, and that He'll give us the best, fiddunya wal akhirah...

InsyaAllah..

Have faith in Allah... Always, always...

(",)

InsyaAllah,

Suami dunia dan akhirat.. (",)

Day 19~~~ WHeRe I SLePt...

Salam....

Haiiiiiihhhh...

Memang tak best btol tajuk Photo Challenge hari ni..

Huhuhu.. sebab tak best jadi I akan tulis seciput je hehe..

This is where I slept, and what's Winnie the Pooh doing there?

mmmmm.. because its Aleena's bed too...!!

hehehe iye... 

manja tu, bangun malam peluk mama, cukup 3 tahun ni kena asing tmpat tido jugak la, besar gedabak dah hehe..

So bole la katil I clear dari teddy bear cam Puan Liza.. eh Puan Liza? 

Tchuss!

(",)

Day 18~~~ In My Bag...

Yes, this is my bag....

Don't say anything...

I know, I know, it's really unlike me to carry this kind of bag wherever I go, the old me always had a sling bag with a cute stylish design..

But things changed, I prefer this kind of bag now because I need lots of space for my stuffs...

And Aleena's stuffs too..

And furthermore, I can cramp things up in this bag pack, things I buy from the store, because here, you have to pay for a plastic bag, so, carrying a bag pack like this really is necessary.

What's in my bag anyway?

As you can see in the picture above (",)

Actually, bag pack isn't so bad... 

Right?

(",)

There's Always Something To Learn.... (",)

Just wanna share something here, there was a thick snow yesterday, so after we fetched Fatini from Kindergaten, we didn't go straight home, we spent almost half an hour playing with the snow instead.

Fatini was the first to finish, so she requested to get inside.

Aleena refused and asked for a lil more time, and at this 'extra time' she'd requested, I just stood there watching her, freezing, shivering.... brrrrrrrrr...

Eventually, I forced her to get inside, so she threw a tantrum for not wanting to get inside.. 

What!!!

It was almost an hour, and I made a few snow balls and a tiny snow man and already I was freezing and she was all;

"Tak sejuk pun..."

"Tak lama pun main, baru kejap je.."

huhuhu...

Haaaaa nampak, sempat buat macam2 gaya, pastu cakap tak sejuk?!

Ok, ok, so today, on the way home from kindergarten, I tried my best to divert her attention from the snow in front of our house, but to no avail...

And, I didn't let her play with the snow, as I had runny nose but the real reason was, I knew it won't be  a short while!! I knew she wouldn't want to stop!
 mmmmm kijam ke?

So ape lagi, ngamuk laaaaa... mmmmm...

kesian la pulak..

And today evening about 2pm, Fatini was standing by the window and suddenly she said out loud, 

"Mama tangok!! Comel la budak tu main tarik2 camtu!!"

I looked out the window and saw a mom and her child playing on the thick snow...

mmmmmm cute (dalam hati la..)

But nothing hit me just yet....

Until about 4.45pm, when it was bout getting dark outside, I went to the window again to pull down the blinds, and.....

Oh my God, they were still there!!!

Both of them, and they both look so..... happy!!

Then it hit me, oh.... I'm a terrible mother...

She could spend hours with her child, but me???

1 jam pun dah bising huhu...

I adore German moms, they're so committed! 

And I've learned a lot from them!

So with new determination, I promised myself that tomorrow I'll put water proof clothes on Aleena, and let her play for as long as she wants on the snow.. 

I'll prepare lunch early in the morning so Afeef and Fatini will have something to eat for lunch when they got home, and I'll bring a book with me so I can read while waiting for her to finish playing with the snow..

Yes, I'll do that!

Errrrr... Tetibe bukak tingkap tengok snow dah cair hehehe...

(",)

Day 17~~~ On THe SHeLf....

Yes, that's the shelf....

There's a few shelves actually, but let me just show you guys the one with my favorite books on.

Actually, there's also hubby's books there, terselit pulak, yg ilmiah tu hubby punya lah hehe..

Eh, kaler canvas pun terselit kat situ, adoyai, mmg tak organize langsung!

Ok, these are some of my favorite books, there's more actually, but I don't have all with me here huhu.. Basically, my favorite author are Mary Higgins Clark, Sophie Kinsella and Cecilia Ahern :)

Fast-paced, straight to the point, delicious page-turner, and hilarious (except Mary Higgins books) are best to describe their books (",)

Nevertheless, my favorite book happened to be from another author,

Khaled Hosseini..

 (Betul la orang cakap, kalau kita suka kaler merah tak semestinya baju2 kita pun merah) eh, x de kena mengena..

Of all the books I've read, this one somehow had touched my heart so deeply that at one point I felt so overwhelmed with sadness, and of course I was in tears...

But of course, no one had seen me with tears running down my cheeks because it was in the middle of the night where it's the best time to read with no distractions and all hehe..

But really, some parts of the story really was heartbreaking huhu..

I highly recommend this for everyone to read!

And on the shelf is also a place for fond memories..

This book here is very special to me, a friend gave it to us when we went to visit them in London about 2 years ago. Actually all gifts from friends are special, but this one is a bit extra special, because it was from a friend who I'd learnt something valuable from..

"Memuliakan tetamu seperti yg Islam anjurkan (",)"

Not only that they had prepared gifts for each one of us, but they had also treated us so well while we were in London..

I learnt a lot from them, and was so determined to be just like them (",)

See, siap ade mesej lagi kat dalam buku tu hehe..

Ok, I think that is all I have to say bout the shelf, I don't think there'll be any new books on this shelf in the near future as hubby reads online books now, and I think I'll do the same too..

And remember, even a shelf and books on it hold extra special memories.. (",)

Till tomorrow, salam..

Day 16~~~ WHaT I Ate...

Salam...

What I ate.....

 What I ate yesterday? Or two days ago?

Or last week? Or last month? 

How about what I ate today?

Ladna Fried Rice!! 

(Although serba kekurangan) hehehe! Tapi boleh la...

And I modified a bit, using whatever I have in the kitchen.

Just had it for dinner... (",)

 For recipe, you can refer HERE. 

Oh sleepy me... 

Till tomorrow, Salam....

(",)

My LiTtLe PaSSiOn... (",)

Salam...

mmmmmm... I have a new piano cover to share, something from Mariah Carrey, but hadn't had the time to record it and make a video etc etc.. 

So, why don't I share something with you guys, something I've been addicted to for so long..

Addicted to a song, actually a piano cover hehe.....(",)

I'm sure everybody knows this song, sape tak tau tu memang ketinggalan ketapi sungguh la hehe..

One Moment In Time, by Whitney Houstan, From the album,

 "1988 Summer Olympics Album"

Yes! It was once a theme song for Olympic games!

The song is wonderful, beautiful, and is worth every beautiful word to describe it. 

Some people say, this song should always be an Olympic theme song because of the powerful lyrics.

"I want one moment in time,

When I'm more than I thought I could be,

When all of my dreams are a heart beat away,

And the answers are all up to me,

Give me one moment in time, 

When I'm racing with destiny,

Then, in that one moment of time,

I will feel eternity...."

As for me, I'm in tears sometimes whenever I really really listened to this song and this piano cover by this lady from Japan here, not only the melody and the lyrics of the song itself that has touched my heart, but how she plays the piece so beautifully..... 

For those who have passions for music as much as I do, you know what I mean... ;) 

It looks as if her fingers are dancing on the piano keys.. lovely.. (",)

She is amazing, I adore her, she's my favorite pianist ever!!! I've never seen anyone played this song as wonderful, beautiful and as perfect as she did on You Tube... It's my dream to play piano like her, (tak tau lah akan trcapai ke tak hehe) and it's also my dream to join an orchestra.. 

Thinking to start learning to play violin.. (pulak dah..) hehe..

It's a motivational song, the best for me, when I'm feeling down, I get a lil bit motivated by listening to it, hope so do you (",)

Day 15~~~ My ShOEs....

Salam....

 Today I'm seriously not in the mood to write!!

So this time, I'll really really make it short... (mmmmmmm ye la tu..)

Yes, I'm serious...

Tak percaya cuba baca..

~~~My shoes~~~ 

On the top left~~ Jogging shoes

On the top right~~ House shoes (comel kan?? 1euro je after discount )

Next~~ My Vincci Sandal, my only sandal from Malaysia which I love so much...

Next~~ Just a shoes I bought last summer, very comfortable...

Next~~~ My Winter boots, which I rarely wear.. why?? I save the answer for later because this entry will be a short one, because I'm so not in the mood to write, but still I'm typing now, and there goes, rambling again!!!

Ok, ok, next!!

Lastly, on the bottom right~~~ My daily shoes, my favorite shoes, it's velvety, black, very comfy, it keeps my feet warm all the time, I love it! 

Basically, again just like my clothes, I never chose any specific brands for my shoes, I just buy whatever  is nice, comfortable at a reasonable price. 

mmmmmm... tapi rasa cam nak try Clarks la someday..

Tetibe jer...

(",)

Till tomorrow, Salam..

Day 14~~~ FLoWeRs...

Salam....

Oh mann (dengan gaya orang German cakap)....hehe..

Again, Oh mann.. so not in the mood to write anything here..

But I have to, it's flowers day!!

Let me just make it short..

What should I talk about? Flowers in my house? My favorite flowers? 

Lets see...

I've always loved Tulips and Sunflowers too, since I was a little girl... 

But, only the real ones..

Which is why, I loved these moments sooooo much....

Keukenhof Holland~~~ A place of my dream.. so full of Tulips...

Rasa macam takmo balik wokeh!!

If given a chance, I'd love to go there again! 

And that, hadn't yet fulfilled my entire dream...

And last Summer, we found this Sunflower field on our 10days trip (pic above, bottom right)..

Wow, that completes my dream...

Being in a Sunflower field was one of the greatest experience here, with bees buzzing about hehe..

It was just indescribable for a Sunflower lover like me (",)

And when it's Spring...

I loved to play around with wild flowers...

(Itu bakul toys Aleena hehehehe!!!)

And lastly...

Above all...

 Flowers in my heart!!!

Errrr... Hubby tak termasuk sbb ade duri hehehe!!  (simbolik abis haha)

Till tomorrow, Salam.. (",)

Day 13~~~ FrOm A DisTaNcE...

From a distance...

I saw the most beautiful sights I've ever seen in my whole Life..

From a distance..

I saw a double Rainbow... Subahanallah..

From a distance..

I watched as the sky turn dark...

From a distance...

I captured moments in my minds-eye...

Moments I'll never forget...

And people I'll cherish for the rest of my life.. (",)

From a distance...

Where Life seemed so wonderful and nothing else matters...

From a distance...

Where I saw a new beginning, a deeper meaning...

From a distance...

Where I saw two innocent hearts...

From a distance..

Where everything seems so far away, but very near at heart...

(",)

GoOd And NuTriTioUs FoOd.. (",)

Ehem...

mmmmmm.. it's not a food story day just yet, but... can I talk a lil bit bout food?

Ok, It's not a recipe that I wanna share here, nor what I've cooked for today, but I just wanna raise awareness to a healthy eating habit. Haaahh!! 

Tetibe jer..! hehe..

But seriously, do you realize that most of us often care for enough food rather than good food?

I remember once, a friend of mine prepared a porridge for her baby, and the porridge was just a porridge,  it consists of a rice, salt and water and nothing else!! 

She said, sometimes she add eggs, or just soya sauce! 

That's it??!!

No fibers, no proteins (ok there'll be proteins if she add eggs, but eggs all the time??)... 

How about vitamins and minerals? Our children needs those more than anything else!

I was shocked, but it hits me instantly when she said;

"It doesn't matter, I just don't want my kid to feel hungry.."

Yeah true, but don't you want your kid to be healthy too?

I don't know, I don't blame her, it's just us, Malaysian people especially, our awareness of good and nutritious food is startlingly low... 

We tend to go for the quantity rather than the quality of the food.

It's no one to be blamed, some people really can't afford to have a better food, so their focus is not on nutritious food, but whether or not they have something to feed on.. 

Oh, this is heart breaking..

Thank you Allah for unlike those who are unfortunate, we have the choice... 

"What should I eat today?"

rather than,

"Is there anything to eat?"

Back to my main point, I used to be a mommy who just wanted to make sure my kids weren't hungry too, I never bothered to ensure that they have all the nutrition needed for growth etc etc..

Which explains, why Afeef used to have a daily 'nasik, kicap, telur' routine, because that's the simplest to prepare huhu.. 

I told you before, I used to be a lazy mommy, huhu..

But not anymore, my mission now is to make sure my children have all the good foods, and I think I've succeeded a little. 

From someone who used to hate vegetables especially the raw ones, Afeef now enjoy salad with rice and any kind of side dish.

I make sure he has salad everyday in his meal. And also an apple is a must everyday. 

And recently, Fatini and Aleena starting to enjoy salad in their food too!!

So I'm telling you guys all this, so as to share my own experience, and that it's not impossible or too late to start!

Make the right choice, avoid MSG, anything with preservatives, less processed foods, more fruits and vegetables, it's not so difficult actually (",)

It's one thing if you are a grown-up making bad choices for yourself, it's another to make bad choices for the kids, choices that could doom them to lifelong poor health.

Make the right choice today!