A HaPpY CiRcLE In LiFe (",)

It's been a while since my last update, dunno why, I was always  sooooo not in the mood to write... 

As usual there were many many many stories to tell, but, they were left untold.... But then again, not everything we did, or happened in ourlives were meant to be shared...

But one thing worth sharing here, is about my Usrah group...

What I wanna share is not about the usrah itself, or who's the member, or what our activities were when we get together, but... My attitude towards it...

This Usrah group started about 2 years ago, just me and one friend, she lives quite far from my place.. We started just the two of us, and we started doing it online through Skype..

As time went on, the members of the gropup increased from two, to three, four, and by now, it has grown quite huge with about 8 members.. InsyaAllah, there'll be more later :)

We met regularly online, we kept reminding each other of our purposes in life, and after each session, I would feel more content, refreshed and....... Complete...

But, there was one turning point where I felt so wrong, so not in the mood for this usrah thingy where I just felt like quitting..  I was so close to doing so, sooooo close, and perhaps if I did, that would be one of the biggest mistake I've ever made and the stupidest thing I've ever done my whole life...

Really....

Thankfully, when I was in this state of confusion, hubby kept guiding me, and kept telling me, no matter what my reasons were to quit usrah, just don't quit...

Yeah, it worked a few times, but not always..... From time to time, I still felt wrong at heart...

But, thankfully again, when I was in UK about two months back, a friend who was also our usrah group member sent me a very very beautiful article, heart whelming, and just what I really needed at that time... It was basically about usrah, and how the Author revealed her own experiences relating Usrah, how at one point she also wanted to quit, and how she felt that she benefits nothing from Usrah, and how wrong she felt about the whole thing... Oh my, exactly like how I felt at that moment!!

But, as she was telling her stories, I didn't quite feel anything until the last part, when she wrote bout how she realized what she was about to do was totally wrong and that she mentioned specifically that, if we ever felt like quitting or not joining usrah when we had the chance, we were actually falling into the Jahilliyah trap or chain, or whatever you wanna call it...

Oh ya Allah!! I remember gasping at that...

".......Falling into the Jahilliyyah trap......"

Tears started welling up in my eyes, at the thought of how I got carried away until I never realized what  had happened, and another thought hit me, about how hubby, friends, sister and my mom tried to help me, not letting me fall or not letting me fall further into this trap by giving me advices, but nothing seemed to really worked, because, it was me, it was all me... It was my sick heart... 

Yes... Every single thing happens for a reason, every single thing that had happened there's something to learn, every single people we meet in our lives has his or her own significance.. No matter how good or bad, we should always be thankful for their existence in our life even if one relationship ended up ruefully....

Some people I met here changed my life tremendously, and I believed I've changed some other people's life too, and I hope in a positive way...

So, my being in UK had a huge impact in my life too and a huge turning point too regarding Usrah particularly...

How??

My sister and her family live in a neighborhood surrounded by many Malaysian families, I even had the chance to meet some of them while I was there, and they had these arrangements of Usrah where they took turns which house should the Usrah being held each week. My 2nd week there, they were supposed to have one usrah session at a nearby friend's house. And my sister, who'd just gave birth to her 2nd child and still in confinement period, planned to attend it and even asked me and my mom to come along.. She even planned to bring her baby along...

I was already a lil bit amazed by her courage but not until she told me exactly one day before the Usrah was due, that unfortunately the 'naqibah' could not make it and that other members of the group planned to just cancel the usrah session for that week...

But, to my amazement, my sister refused to cancel it, and she volunteered to be the 'naqibah', and I watched her study and read something from a book at about midnight with her baby by her side, sometimes my sister had to cuddle her and breastfeed her, but still she reads...

Oh my, that was the huge turning point for me... How determined, how she refused to give up so easily even for one Usrah session...

Not only that she has strong reasons to cancel the Usrah, the absent 'naqibah', her being in confinement period, but she tried hard not to cancel it.. 

But me??????!!!!

I wanted to quit usrah for reasons I wasn't sure what they were, let alone fight for it?? Haaaaahhhh..

I've never felt so humiliated my whole life.. Not to anyone, but to myself particularly and of course to Allah SWT....

But, I knew, things happened for a reason... Two weeks in UK changed my attitude towards Usrah entirely, apart from the wonderful times with the loved ones :)

Seeing the Ukhwah between them, I realized I'm given the chance, eventhough I didn't get to meet my usrah group member so often, (we meet online regularly) but once we get together it was among the best moment in Deutschland... Something worth remembering my whole life insyaAllah..

Like over two weeks ago, we met again for a little picnics and bbq, and chit chatting and games!! ;)

It was great...

Ahah, game time!! This is our envelope that contains questions, it's a game we played in pair, each group consists of husband and wife haha..

Cool and Nice (",)

A little picnic too... hehe.. 

There's Sushi, Satay, Kerabu rice, fried bihun, BBQ meat, chicken, squid, prawns, etc etc...

Yummy yummy..

Things didn't just stop there... More realizations hit me... Like a clogged pipe suddenly cleared from blockage, and water started flowing in, that was how everything started flowing in my head... 

I realized how special these friends I have, how kind, how they appreciate me.. How some of them noticed that I kind of dictance myself away from the whole Usrah thing, but still they never left me out, they kept persuading me in their own way, still gave me a chance and space whenever I needed it...

And most importantly, I noticed how forgiving each member of this Usrah group..

Non of us are perfect, I guess theres something lacking in our usrah group at some point last time that made me decided to quit, but... If we wait for things to be perfect, then I guess we're never gonna get anywhere.. We have to be the one to help make it perfect, fix the problems, and work together instead of just chose to leave.. Like the saying goes, 

"Don't wait for a perfect moment, but take the moment and make it perfect... "

Yeah... I guess I learnt my lessons, alhamdulillah... ;)

Alhamdulillah..... alhamdulillah... alhamdulillah... alhamdulillah...

I feel so good nowadays, and I did wonder, what would my life be like if I really quitted? 

Miserable I guess haha..

Wouldn't I be??

Abu Hurairah and Abu Sa`id Al-Khudri (May Allah be pleased with them) reported: The Messenger of Allah (sallallaahu ’alayhi wa sallam) said, "When a group of people assemble for the remembrance of Allah, the angels surround them (with their wings), (Allah's) mercy envelops them, Sakinah, or tranquillity descends upon them and Allah makes a mention of them before those who are near Him.''

Right?

Even if life's not miserable, my heart would be empty....

And... what a waste to miss all the things shared during each Usrah session..

So, never ever doubt the benefits of any assembly made for the remembrance of Allah... 

NEVER!!

If you encounter problems, try to fix it, not run away!

Lastly, I played a song specially for my Usrah group members...

And it's also meant for my mom, hubby and sister, who have always guided me through whenever I seemed to have lost my way and direction... :')

Thank You...

So here it is,

~~~~~ Sebuah Pertemuan~~~~~ 

~~USRAH~~~

 Bulatan gembira, bukan untuk mereka yang alim2 dan bertudung labuh sahaja, ia untuk semua...

~~~Wardina~~~

Ps: Sorry for any mistakes in my writing... My English isn't perfect, but I'm trying my best... (",)

Spring Holiday part2

Salam.....

I have so many things to write and share here but I just have no time...

Don't tell me housewives have lots of time, don't tell me housewives have nothing to do at home!

There are lots and lots of things to do, that I wish I just have more time in one day!!

errrrrr.... hubby always says that we don't actually 'Have no time'.....

It's how we managed the times we have... Agree????

mmmmm.... btol la tu.... hehe

I have to work smart, think smart and waste no time....

So, a little update about my previous entry ~~Spring Holiday.

After we left Izu's house, we went to central London, the Malaysian Embassy specifically... hubby went there to renew his passport. Afterwards, we had our lunch at Hyde Park London, Nasik lemak yang Malaysian habis hehe and mee goreng...

At Hyde Park, London (",)

After that, we went to Malaysian Hall, solat Zuhur and Asar sambil Afeef pekena nasik sepinggan lagi haha!

Then, we went to Tower Bridge...

Glad that we finally made it here, the last time we were in London, we'd made a mistake and ended up in London bridge instead of Tower Bridge.. hehe...

And of course the view at night was even more mesmerizing I supposed (",)

Thank God the kids were all so strong and supportive and energetics... we didn't even have a stroller with us.. We just have each other to keep us stronger and a spirit so huge to meet my mom, my sister, my niece and my new niece!!!!!!

Seriously, I felt like flying straight to my sister's house!!!

Our train to Loughborough UK was due at 10 pm that night, so the plan was to wait at the train station until 10pm and get the kids something ( I bought them magazines and something for them to play with) to keep them awake. Can't afford to let them sleep before we get on the train because we didn't have a stroller with us!!

And 10pm in UK was 11pm in Germany!! Far past their bedtime!! 

But Alhamdulillah, everything went as planned (",)

It was a long day, but they were all so strong... Thank you so much, Afeef, Fatini, Aleena, for making it easy for mama and papa.. (",)

So, the moment we got on the train and settled in our seats, they were all in ~~Lalala Land~~

 hehehe...

Tengok Fatini tu sampai mengalir air liur basi hahahah!

I on the other hand couldn't sleep at all, was so excited to meet mom and adik and new baby, so I spent the time chatting with hubby and reading (",)
Adohai, while writing all these, all the feelings came back to me, mmmmmm...
There this warm feelings inside and excitement I couldn't describe... I long for that feeling again (",)

At about 12am UK time, we reached Louborough UK, where my sister's hubby waited for us. I woke Afeef up, and Hubby had to carry Fatini and I had to carry Aleena, tapi x pe, it was just a short walk before we got on the car.
It was just a few minutes drive.
And then there we were, at my sister's home, they were all still awake and waiting for us even though it's very late!!
Oh..... I miss those moments....


So, lets just make it short, among the few interesting events while we were in UK:

A trip to Manchester, UK.....

First stop, a friend's house in Manchester...

Then, Manchester United Football Club....

Where my mom initially wasn't so interested to go, but......

End up buying most hehehe...

Eh??...

My mom khusyuk memilih hehehe..

Dan jugak makan2 di Manchester, 'Mandi Rice'...

The next day, we went to Stonehenge...

Errrrrrr.....

Rezeki cik Aleena, jumpa Teletubbies kat Carboot dengan harga 50sen hehehe...

I've been searching for Teletubbies for Aleena coz she loves it so much, but never found one in Germany.. kalau ada pun, mesti mahal..

So, memang rezeki dia lah, hepi tak terkata, mama pun hepi jugak hehe..

She carries it it with here anywhere she goes (",)

Then Carboot, my sister and her hubby took us there...

Dan inilah hasil nya...... hahaha!!!

Just imagine ok camne kitorang hangkut bawak balik hehe...

Kuda besar dapat free, kuda kecik 2pound + hadiah buku2... 

Dan ada lagi barang2 dan buku2 from previous Carboot hehehe...

Most books 20pence each, ya Allah Heaven for book lovers!!!

Kalau ikut hati macam2 buku lagi nak beli, tapi tatau camana nak angkut balik German je...

Ade jugak basikal Barbie, cantik!!! Siap dengan carrier kat belakang, dan bag Barbie kat depan, 10pound je!! Tu pun bila kitorang cam x nak beli dia nak offer turun harga lagi!

Rasa cam nak cakap, 

"Oh we definitely think 10pound is cheap enough and we definitely wanna grab it even if you don't reduce the price, but we can't because we don't know how to 'angkut' it" heheheh...

Kalau Flohmarkt sini, basikal cantik camtu mesti at least 30euro!!!

Fatini pun menangis2 nak beli jugak, kalau lah kami memang penduduk UK memang dah beli tau .. tapi apekan daya kan...

Memang nikmat lah dok UK ni.. 

Ape pun, bersyukur dengan ape yang ada... (",)

Alhamdulillah diberi peluang merasa semua ni, dan dapat jugak carik buku English banyak2 for the kids and myself too...

Rezeki Nadrah, kuda2 ni kami tinggal aje (",) 

There's more stories actually, later I'll update insyaAllah...

The kids were having a great time... (",)

Playground only a few steps away from my sister's home. 

***sigh****

I miss those moments.... 

Terribly....

Lastly....

A Piano cover by me, 

This time I dedicate this specially for those who will be getting married soon (",)

~~Impian Kasih, InTeam Sentimental version~~~

Used to love this song so much, and still love it very much...

Lovely (",)

Enjoy!

Till later, Salam....

Night Surprise (",)

Salam....

So very not in the mood to update this blog hehehe...

It's perfectly understandable right??? I mean, I don't get to see my mom and my sister and my nieces very often!

But today, I have to update this blog no matter what, eventhough I'm so sleepy rite now, so let this one be a really really short one (",)

Today, 28th of March 2013 is...........

Aleena's 3rd BIRTHDAY!!!!!

We didn't plan for any celebration coz we wanna wait for my hubby to return, insyaAllah tomorrow hubby's flight is due. But, earlier tonight, my sister's hubby made a huge surprise for all of us.... 

A really really huge surprise!!

None of us expected it and there it was, a chocolate cake in the Kitchen!!!

Ya Allah, I was so surprised and speechless all at the same time.. Sungguh tak sangka!! Dah malam nak tido dah, ade surprise pulak hehe...

Thanx a million to them, tak terluah rasanye for everything, their kindness, hospitality etc etc..

I'm really really blessed with wonderful people around (",)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST ALEENA, Semoga membesar menjadi anak solehah dan beroleh kebahagiaan di dunia dan akhirat.... Amin...

Till later, Salam... (",)

Spring's Holiday ~~Part 1~~ (",)

Salam...

Wow, feel so long since my last update.. I don't know why but every time I sat infront of my computer to update blog, I ended up doing something else hehe...

Ok, just a quick one before all events became rotten (",)

Esters holiday just started last Wednesday and will last in 2 weeks, and coincidently my sister in UK gave birth to her 2nd child early in March. And what's more, my mother decided to visit them, and help taking care of the newborn, and me????

Of coz I was overly excited!!! Meeting my mom and my sister again!!! And a new niece!!!! Wow!!!

Super duper cool!!

So, we booked a flight ticket to London last Tuesday evening, and our first stop was.........

Tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......!!!!!!

My long time friends, Izuan Murat and Hisham... Izu is among the first person I met during my early days in IIUM. Something still so fresh in my mind, We sat next to each other the whole of orientation week (",)

Today, masing2 dah ada 3 anak! How time flies... (",)

So our 1st stop was Izu and Hisham's house, not only that Izu insisted we should spend the night there, she also insisted that Hisham pick us all up from the airport! Terharu ok, dah la jauh pulak tu.. When we reached their house, they served us with wonderful and delicious meals!!

Macam2 masak, sedap2, superb hospitality....thank you sooooo much Izu and Hisham... Allah bless you guys (",)

I myself feel like I'm truly blessed with wonderful people around me (",) Alhamdulillah...

Overall, We had a great time at Izu & Hisham's, and unfortunately we had to leave early in the morning, it's not a school holidays just yet in London, The Eins (their two beautiful girls) had to go to school and my hubby had to renew his passport.

So we left about 10.30am, and our train to Loughborough UK was due at 10pm that very same day.. It's a long day, yes... But it was great, we went to Malaysian hall again, Hyde park, and Tower bridge. We didn't have the chance to visit Tower bridge the last time we were in London (",)

I'll continue tomorrow, insyaAllah, or day after tomorrow, or tomorrow tomorrow haha!!

You know, being with your loved ones, other activities seemed like a waste of time!!

Oh, this time around, this Spring's holiday, is by far the best holiday for me.. Can't believe I get to meet my mom again and my sister in just a few months after we'd last get together. Ini pun dikira rezeki kan...? I've never had to ask, He gave, if I asked, He never dissappoint..... 

Thank you Allah!

Till later, salam... (",)

Always in my Heart...

A picture worth a few words...

1~~ Hang out with friends.

2~~ Everyone is totally engrossed in a conversation that no one seemed to notice the camera.

3~~ Aleena is damn bored... heheheh.. and a bit left out at a corner there :)

More words?? 

Yeah, the food was great!! 

Friends come and go, but only true friends will leave footprints in our hearts..

And so will those people we love, those people who are very very special, they'll leave permanent footprints...
I play this song again, this time with an intro and also a better tempo and I dedicate this to all special people in my life,
You know who you are... (",)

When I play this song, I have this warm feeling inside ***sigh****

Enjoy!!

Happy 8th Birthday My Afeef...

mmmmmmmmmm.... 

As usual, been missing for a while now... (",)

I'm back again, so much stories to tell, so little time..

Whatever it is, these past 3 weeks had been one of the most memorable ones in Deutschland, I'm truly thankful for everything that happened, I truly feel blessed, loved and haaaaaiiiiiihhhhh... indescribable (",)

Ok, let me just share a few interesting stories..

Let's begin with, Afeef's 8th Birthday...

Not much to tell, only that this time around, we didn't really celebrate, but we had more important people around to make the day more meaningful.. 

Well, my mother and my sister were here.. isn't that really something, I've had never before imagined to have them here with us in Deutschland... but, things happened unexpectedly, with God's will of course.. and I'm really really thankful!!

Ok, so back to Birthday story, I only baked these little cupcakes for him and his friends, they had a small celebration in school..

What I wanna share here is that, how special Afeef is...

He never gives me a hard time.. 

Since he was born, everything bout him was easy, and since little he's always been an obedient boy...

There were times when I've lost control of myself in dealing with stubborn Fatini, Afeef would always come to me and calmed me down.. he would take Fatini's hand and comfort her...

Oh my, sometimes I feel ashamed with myself, because he's more patience than me... 

I've learned a lot from this little boy..

I've been wondering, what makes every child so different from one another??

Why is Afeef obedient, and Fatini's soooo stubborn?

Why is Afeef so calm and easy to deal with whereas Fatini is totally the opposite???

Is it genetics??? Or the way we raised them??

But we've raised them both the same way..

So why why, why are they so different..??

Well.... 

I can't think of any better answer, it's just how I was when I was pregnant...

How much I've recited the Quran particularly Surah Yasin when I was pregnant with Afeef, how calm  and happy I was when I carried him in my womb, how ready I was to have him.. 

And with Fatini, things were different, I wasn't ready to have her, I was in so much stress to finish my Bachelor degree and I had a hard time dealing with my final year project's supervisor.. in short, I wasn't happy and most importantly, I've hardly spent my time reciting the Quran!! 

So, to everyone, never ever let a day goes by without reciting the Quran, at least one surah or one ayat..

And for pregnant mommies, you have to spend more times reciting the Quran...

No matter how busy, try your best, you have no idea just how huge the effects of reciting the Words of God on a developing fetus, especially when the mother herself recites it :)

See, he looks like a big and protective brother for his two little and notty sisters hehe..

And Fatini loves him so much...

Actually everyone loves Afeef (",)

Hmmmmmmmmm.... time does fly fast...

Can't believe he's 8 years old already...

Oh Allah, help us, and guide us in raising our children in the best way possible,..

My Afeef, may you grow up to be 'anak soleh' fiddunya wal akhirah... (",)

Ok, sedikit selingan hehehe...

Lama dah tak main piano, so here's a new one from me (",)

Sape yg suka Ungu tu, suka la ni heheheh!!!

Enjoy!!

Awesome wekend :)

Ok, this is another story for this past wekend, Mike came over again for a lunch at our place..

And...

Tengok la sape yg mengade2 lagi hehehe...

Mama tengok pun tak tahaaaannnn ok..

Amboi amboi, with me, she'd always always insisted on feeding herself, but with Mike..??

Where have all this 'I'll do everything myself' attitude gone to?????

This is completely Double standards !!!

Oh, ngade2 sungguh... hehehehehe!!!

And also...

A few things Mike helped us bought this past wekend, he even helped carrying everything up the stairs, I couldn't thanked him enough for all the things he'd done for us..

And finally we bought this bread maker as well, been wanting to buy this for so long, but didn't know which one is the best, and saw this at the base with a very satisfying price, so we gave it no second thought, and grabbed it...

And look at our first bread.. hahaha

Hubby baked this, that Saturday night itself we've tasted our first bread, hehe, it tasted super special :)

On Sunday, we've decided to go to something like a yard sales held here every year..

There's books, clothes, photo frames, table cover, curtains, toys etc etc with a very good bargain.

Mike wanted to come along, we were more than happy to have him with us..

Honestly, he's like a family member already.. :)

And... look sape yg mengade2 lagi skali.. hehe

And, Fatini yg pemalu ni pun dah tak segan2 nak join sama hehe

mmmmmm....

Tak peduli mama and papa dah...

Nampak tu !! Atas riba Mike aje wah wah wah....!!!

Mike jugak la yg lap kan hingus die hehe..

Tengok air pancut bersama hehe.. sweet tak???

Mike is so nice and kind, very2 loving when it comes to kids, that I sometimes, many times actually, made 'doa' for him, may God guide him to the right path and may he finds the love of his life and have his own children and family and live happily with God's will...

May God bless him :)

Afterwards, we took him to a nearby Kebab house, it's his first time here, he enjoyed the food so much but then again he enjoys everything.. hehe..

Just like Victor and Lily, Mike enjoys new food, and he's interested to learn our culture and everything bout Malaysia...

So we bought him a book about Malaysia hehe..

mmmmmmmm... Hubby said something bout this photo, but I couldn't tell what it is hahahaha...

But I think, hubby is a bit jealous hehehe..!!!!

Anyway, it was another great wekend, and I know I've said this many times, but last wekend was also one of the best wekend here in Deutschland hehehe

There's more to come insyaAllah..

Thank you Allah for all the wonderful things that happened and for all the wonderful people around us, they've made our journey in Deutschland the most memorable ones.. :)

Memorable Moments in Koblenz..... ---<@

This is a very delayed entry, mmmmm... up till today, i'm still not in the mood to write,

***sigh***

I was in the mood to play Korean song gegege :D

Ok, back to the story, this was last last Saturday, 3rd of Mac, we had once again gathered in Kak pah's house in Koblenz.. :)

I wrote about our 'get together' session before, HERE.

This time, it was not just for us to get together, but also to celebrate Izfa, who'd just completed her PHD here, congrats to you, dearest Izfa.. :)

There Izfa, seating next to me :)

I'll never forget that brief moment I had with Izfa where she sort of delivered an 'usrah' hehehe..

I'll never forget those encouraging words from Izfa, I know, I'll definitely miss her and really look forward to meeting her again in Malaysia later.... :)

These were all the foods :)

We've missed this, because we were late.

Sape suruh sesat jauh ke Kaiserslautern kan hehehe...

Nevertheless, no matter how far, we would still try our best to make it, these were moments not to be missed :)

The three HOT mama huehehehehe !!

From left, Yla, little danish, Siti hajar, and... ME hehe

Me and Hajar (my sifu for roti, donut and pizza making hehe)..

Memorable moment :)

I didn't take any photos there, moments were too precious that I dared not waste any of it, so I borrowed all these photos form Siti hajar hehe, and also from Kak Hani (tudung hijau)

Izinkan sy share gambar2 di sini iye :)

It had been also one of the best and enjoyable wekend for me, we had a great laughs, great time together, everything was just great.. :)

We'll definitely miss u Izfa... :)