Today, the first of Ramadhan, I've just made a whole new huge turn in my life...
I've managed to overcome my fears, I've managed to force myself to do something I really didn't want to do, but it's what I should do, because it's the right thing to do, no doubt about it, because I know, if I do it, Allah will be happy and hubby will be happy too...
And I've successfully did it with confidence too!!
A few months ago, when I was soooooo close to quitting Usrah, I desperately needed something to change my heart, and there it was... Allah had helped... Allah showed me the way, he had guided me, where I should go, what I should see, what I should learn from that... He'd helped open my heart again through people and friends around me...
Today, I desperately needed something again to prevent me from making the wrong decision, in that short moment I had to make the decision, and when I was soooooo close to making the wrong decision again, and I kept asking for help and... AGAIN Allah had helped..
The short tazkirah after Tadarus session today was just what I needed...
How a little tazkirah could change my heart entirely amazed me...
But actually, a little tazkirah could only make you realize of the good and right things you should do in life, but, only Allah can give you the strength and courage to do it and only Allah can change your heart.. Only Allah can do it...
If we have faith in Allah, everything in Life will be easy...
We'll have no more fears, no more uncertainties... Life will feel complete...
So, today's Tadarus, we had covered Juz 2 of Surah Al-Baqarah.. And since I was the one appointed to read the meaning of some of the Ayat, I found this profound ayat touched my heart so deeply...
"And when My servants ask you about Me, of course, I am near. I respond to the call of one when he prays to Me;'so they should respond to Me, and have faith in Me so that they may be on the right path." (2:186)
See how true it is....
Allah is near and He responds to our call.. Just have faith in Him, have faith in Him, have faith in Him... Always always...
Today, the 1st of Ramadhan, marked a new beginning in my life and a deeper meaning..
I've succeeded in something, I've managed to overcome my fears and fight uncertainties, and have strong faith in Allah SWT!!
So, if I could do it, so CAN YOU!!
Lets fight and do ibadah endlessly for this Ramadhan, it could be our last, we never know..
It's been a while since my last update, dunno why, I was always sooooo not in the mood to write...
As usual there were many many many stories to tell, but, they were left untold.... But then again, not everything we did, or happened in ourlives were meant to be shared...
But one thing worth sharing here, is about my Usrah group...
What I wanna share is not about the usrah itself, or who's the member, or what our activities were when we get together, but... My attitude towards it...
This Usrah group started about 2 years ago, just me and one friend, she lives quite far from my place.. We started just the two of us, and we started doing it online through Skype..
As time went on, the members of the gropup increased from two, to three, four, and by now, it has grown quite huge with about 8 members.. InsyaAllah, there'll be more later :)
We met regularly online, we kept reminding each other of our purposes in life, and after each session, I would feel more content, refreshed and....... Complete...
But, there was one turning point where I felt so wrong, so not in the mood for this usrah thingy where I just felt like quitting.. I was so close to doing so, sooooo close, and perhaps if I did, that would be one of the biggest mistake I've ever made and the stupidest thing I've ever done my whole life...
Really....
Thankfully, when I was in this state of confusion, hubby kept guiding me, and kept telling me, no matter what my reasons were to quit usrah, just don't quit...
Yeah, it worked a few times, but not always..... From time to time, I still felt wrong at heart...
But, thankfully again, when I was in UK about two months back, a friend who was also our usrah group member sent me a very very beautiful article, heart whelming, and just what I really needed at that time... It was basically about usrah, and how the Author revealed her own experiences relating Usrah, how at one point she also wanted to quit, and how she felt that she benefits nothing from Usrah, and how wrong she felt about the whole thing... Oh my, exactly like how I felt at that moment!!
But, as she was telling her stories, I didn't quite feel anything until the last part, when she wrote bout how she realized what she was about to do was totally wrong and that she mentioned specifically that, if we ever felt like quitting or not joining usrah when we had the chance, we were actually falling into the Jahilliyah trap or chain, or whatever you wanna call it...
Oh ya Allah!! I remember gasping at that...
".......Falling into the Jahilliyyah trap......"
Tears started welling up in my eyes, at the thought of how I got carried away until I never realized what had happened, and another thought hit me, about how hubby, friends, sister and my mom tried to help me, not letting me fall or not letting me fall further into this trap by giving me advices, but nothing seemed to really worked, because, it was me, it was all me... It was my sick heart...
Yes... Every single thing happens for a reason, every single thing that had happened there's something to learn, every single people we meet in our lives has his or her own significance.. No matter how good or bad, we should always be thankful for their existence in our life even if one relationship ended up ruefully....
Some people I met here changed my life tremendously, and I believed I've changed some other people's life too, and I hope in a positive way...
So, my being in UK had a huge impact in my life too and a huge turning point too regarding Usrah particularly...
How??
My sister and her family live in a neighborhood surrounded by many Malaysian families, I even had the chance to meet some of them while I was there, and they had these arrangements of Usrah where they took turns which house should the Usrah being held each week. My 2nd week there, they were supposed to have one usrah session at a nearby friend's house. And my sister, who'd just gave birth to her 2nd child and still in confinement period, planned to attend it and even asked me and my mom to come along.. She even planned to bring her baby along...
I was already a lil bit amazed by her courage but not until she told me exactly one day before the Usrah was due, that unfortunately the 'naqibah' could not make it and that other members of the group planned to just cancel the usrah session for that week...
But, to my amazement, my sister refused to cancel it, and she volunteered to be the 'naqibah', and I watched her study and read something from a book at about midnight with her baby by her side, sometimes my sister had to cuddle her and breastfeed her, but still she reads...
Oh my, that was the huge turning point for me... How determined, how she refused to give up so easily even for one Usrah session...
Not only that she has strong reasons to cancel the Usrah, the absent 'naqibah', her being in confinement period, but she tried hard not to cancel it..
But me??????!!!!
I wanted to quit usrah for reasons I wasn't sure what they were, let alone fight for it?? Haaaaahhhh..
I've never felt so humiliated my whole life.. Not to anyone, but to myself particularly and of course to Allah SWT....
But, I knew, things happened for a reason... Two weeks in UK changed my attitude towards Usrah entirely, apart from the wonderful times with the loved ones :)
Seeing the Ukhwah between them, I realized I'm given the chance, eventhough I didn't get to meet my usrah group member so often, (we meet online regularly) but once we get together it was among the best moment in Deutschland... Something worth remembering my whole life insyaAllah..
Like over two weeks ago, we met again for a little picnics and bbq, and chit chatting and games!! ;)
It was great...
Ahah, game time!! This is our envelope that contains questions, it's a game we played in pair, each group consists of husband and wife haha..
Things didn't just stop there... More realizations hit me... Like a clogged pipe suddenly cleared from blockage, and water started flowing in, that was how everything started flowing in my head...
I realized how special these friends I have, how kind, how they appreciate me.. How some of them noticed that I kind of dictance myself away from the whole Usrah thing, but still they never left me out, they kept persuading me in their own way, still gave me a chance and space whenever I needed it...
And most importantly, I noticed how forgiving each member of this Usrah group..
Non of us are perfect, I guess theres something lacking in our usrah group at some point last time that made me decided to quit, but... If we wait for things to be perfect, then I guess we're never gonna get anywhere.. We have to be the one to help make it perfect, fix the problems, and work together instead of just chose to leave.. Like the saying goes,
"Don't wait for a perfect moment, but take the moment and make it perfect... "
Yeah... I guess I learnt my lessons, alhamdulillah... ;)
I feel so good nowadays, and I did wonder, what would my life be like if I really quitted?
Miserable I guess haha..
Wouldn't I be??
Abu Hurairah and Abu Sa`id Al-Khudri (May Allah be pleased with them) reported: The Messenger of Allah (sallallaahu ’alayhi wa sallam) said,"When a group of people assemble for the remembrance of Allah, the angels surround them (with their wings), (Allah's) mercy envelops them, Sakinah, or tranquillity descends upon them and Allah makes a mention of them before those who are near Him.''
Right?
Even if life's not miserable, my heart would be empty....
And... what a waste to miss all the things shared during each Usrah session..
So, never ever doubt the benefits of any assembly made for the remembrance of Allah...
NEVER!!
If you encounter problems, try to fix it, not run away!
Lastly, I played a song specially for my Usrah group members...
And it's also meant for my mom, hubby and sister, who have always guided me through whenever I seemed to have lost my way and direction... :')
Thank You...
So here it is,
~~~~~ Sebuah Pertemuan~~~~~
~~USRAH~~~
Bulatan gembira, bukan untuk mereka yang alim2 dan bertudung labuh sahaja, ia untuk semua...
~~~Wardina~~~
Ps: Sorry for any mistakes in my writing... My English isn't perfect, but I'm trying my best... (",)
Mmmmmmmm.... It's been quite sometimes since I've last updated about my paintings. This one below is the latest which I've painted a few months ago. Then I've stopped painting temporarily because I dun know where else should I hang them? The house looks all flowery already, Lily had once said;
"Ahhhhhh Fruhling!!!", when she entered the house haha..
That means 'Spring' in English...
Ok, so what do you think?
I've got a few fans for this painting, some even asked me to start selling my paintings online haha.. Very funny..
This particular painting however, was soooooo much adored by my mother, she'd even seriously thinking about taking it home with her..
Dun worry mom, I'll make another one for u, with a special touch :D
And not just that, it is also used as a background for a photo shoot, during Eid celebration and a few more events which I couldn't locate where have I stored those photos.
Maybe I should start a photography sessions or something with my painting as a background (yeah right, in my dream... Hehehe)
Ok, another huge fan of my paintings is of course, Mike.. Hahaha.. He's also into this painting, mmmmmmm or maybe he's just trying to be nice :D
So he was here last Sunday, and had lunch with us and another new Malaysian friend here. And this morning, again he and hubby headed for the Base, I guess checking things out, and I'm here at home wanting to share something with you guys...
When Mike was here, and as always when we meet, there's always something we've learnt from this knowledgeable guy.
Last week, he talked a lil bit bout the US army base to our new Malaysian friend here, bout things inside there, how cheap were the stuffs there..
But something he said that day, made me think, really really think, like I've just been slapped..!
Ouch!
He said, though things are cheap in there, because they were free from tax, it is ILLEGAL, that's the word, 'ILLEGAL' for anyone to sneak them out and make money out of it!
Of course it's illegal, those are the special rights for all US armies here, and it is not meant for anyone to make a profit out of it!!!!!!!
And the thing is, how come I've never realized this before? I was so close to asking him why didn't he make profit from this? I've always thought, what a waste? He had all the opportunity, and I have so many Malaysian friends who are soooooo into Corelle!
Now I know why, why he never seemed the least interested, because it's 'ILLEGAL'...
And I feel a stab of shame, how could I even think about it? I'm a Muslim and he's not, and he has more moral values than me...
Thank God I've never voiced it out to him before about this 'Business' idea... Huhu..
Though it seems like a small matter, but...
"Walau sebesar zarah skali pun pasti akan menerima balasan...."
And it's true..... "Kefakiran menghampirkan kita dengan kekufuran....."
I think, Mike will be the closest to a perfect Muslim if he is a Muslim, and I hope he receives the hidayah someday...
By the way, my mom had met him as well when she was here, and I heard her say,
"You are a nice man! "
:D
By the way, that whole roasted chicken in a green cover pyrex is specially made by hubby for him hehehe...
Ok, lastly, Lesson I've learnt, we as a Muslim, shouldn't take something so lightly, shouldn't act so indifferent when dealing with anything....
This is what I call a 'Housewives Heaven' ngeh ngeh..
No worries, no pressure, no dateline, no meetings, no rushing... :D
By the way, this is another delicious page-turner by Sophie Kinsella, catchy and of course hilarious!!!
And since it's winter and 6.30pm is already Isya, and at 9pm, already feels like midnight, so everyone sleeps early too..
And since I've turned into sort of a disciplined mommy (konon2 laaa ngeh ngeh),
my reading time is set to only before I go to sleep, on the bed, with only a tiny lamp switched on..
So, I ended up laughing like an idiot in the middle of the night hehehe!!
Ehem.. of course there's a loophole, though I've said reading time is only before I go to sleep, I've decided that is only aplicable when I haven't gotten to the climax of the story :D
Seriously, if you are a huge fan of Sophie Kinsella, then this is a must read!!
And even if you are not a fan of her, you still should read this, it's really really nice!
mmmmmm.... ok, just a lil bit more, this is my latest piano cover, as I've said before, this past week had been a 'Lagu-lagu basi mode', so this is the first lagu basi I've played, not so successfully though.. the ending was a bit huru hara :P
Anyway, Enjoy!!
Sape yang tengah jiwang bercinta masa lagu ni Top dulu, suka lah tew hehehe...
Ok, lastly, came across this yesterday,
"Kemudian sampaikan khabar gembira kepada mereka yang beriman dan beramal soleh, bahawa bagi mereka syurga-syurga yang dihiasi oleh sungai-sungai yg mengalir. Setiap kali mereka mendapat rezeki dari buah-buahan di dalam syurga, mereka mengatakan,
"Rezeki ini adalah rezeki yang telah diberikan kepada kami sebelum ini"
Mereka mendapat rezeki yang serupa tetapi berlainan hakikatnya.."
(Surah Al-Baqarah: ayat 25)
It occurs to me that in heaven, we'll actually have the same kind of life we have now on earth, we'll have the same things we have now, whatever we love to have and already have, we will have it there again.. only in heaven, it's far far better, far happier, with no more tests, no more worries etc etc.. it's unimaginably beautiful...
With her, things were never easy, I must admit, until today she still gives me a hard time...
With her, things were more or less the same, only that u could be easily fooled by this lovely and the 'I'm a good girl' appearance hehe
And when they were together, things often went out of control..
But, when he's around, things were smooth again...
His presence makes everyone just want to sit and play together nicely... :)
Once, Aleena purposely spilled her drink on the carpet, I couldn't control myself and scolded her, Afeef came to me and said,
"Kenapa mama marah Aleena? dia kecik lagi, dia tak faham, mama marah pun nanti dia buat lagi.."
I was taken aback by what he said and...... touched...
He's only 8 years old...
There was one time, when I was really working on something, and Aleena kept bugging me that I inadvertently said out loud,
" Aleena, pleaseee.... mama nak buat kerja kejap !!!"
And Afeef came to her, pulled her hand softly while saying,
"Come Aleena, come, jom kita main... "
And last Saturday, while I was out in town and papa took care of all of them at home, Aleena kept on switching the TV off, and everyone's gone mad, except Afeef...
Hubby told me that Afeef even told him not to get angry with Aleena..
He's only 8 years old...
Sweet kan???
I think, it's not him learning from us, but us learning from him hehe..
Afeef is a very special boy....
Children...
They are so innocent, their kindness are genuine, their love is so pure..
Hug and kiss them while you have the chance..
Don't let our mistakes ruin this beauty they have inside... :)
Prof. Dr. Muhaya Mohamad had once said in one of her talks,
" Jangan marah pada ahli syurga, kita ibu bapa ni yg belum pasti tempat di syurga atau neraka, kenapa marah pada mereka yg tempat nya sudah pasti di syurga??"
Wardina had once said,
" Anak2 tu suci bersih, tak de dosa, mak bapak ni yang banyak dosa, jadi ape hak kita yang banyak dosa ni nak marah mereka yang suci, bersih tak de dosa ni ?? "
Since my father passed away about 3 months ago, I hardly dreamt of him... once or twice I did, but in the dream I couldn't see him clearly, but I knew he was there..
3 nights ago, I saw him clearly in my dream, with his typical 'Baju melayu (his favorite dark green)', 'kain pelikat', a 'kopiah' and a loaf of bread in his hand, the way he often looked like long ago, when he returned home from the Mosque..
I said long ago because, a few years before he'd passed away, he'd been unable to walk properly and been bedridden for almost 2 years..
So the last time I saw him the way he was in my dream, was in 2007..
In that dream, I saw him walking, I was watching him from afar, then suddenly something happened to him, an accident perhaps, wasn't sure what it was, but I knew he fell and hit his head hard on something, and even from afar, I could see his face, he was in pain, I was terrified and screamed so loud and was awaken by my own shock and fear of what could've happend to him in that dream..
I cried for a while and couldn't sleep afterwards...
Then, I started to wonder if the dream meant something or anything at all...
I made doa for him over and over again, I recited Al-Fatihah for him over and over again, and the whole day went on like that, while cooking, while cleaning the house, all I could think of, was him and the dream I had.. and he was my last thought before I dozed off that night..
And, surprisingly, I dreamt of him again that second night..
This time he was so near to me, facing me whilst smiling !!!
With the same 'kopiah' and 'baju melayu', but I couldn't see his 'kain pelikat' nor the bread... but he's smiling and held his hand out to me.. and I voluntarily hugged him, it felt so right, soooo good to be in his embrace and it felt sooooooo REAL, I could feel the fabric of his clothes on my cheek.. and I felt so relief for unknown reason...
Then it was over, and I was awaken from that dream, this time it wasn't from the fear but... Gladness..
I lie awake for a while, staring at the ceiling, and tears of gladness fell from my eyes..
I don't know if those dreams really mean anything at all, but at least, I saw him smile and I got the chance to hugg him even if it wasn't real...
May Allah bless him always...
And as a reminder, we must always always make doa for those we loved who'd already passed away, doa anak2 soleh tu antara yg tak putus... kita lah yg kena bantu mereka di sana...
No matter how busy, memadai lah dengan hanya sepotong Al-Fatihah..
Al-Fatihah juga utk sepupu hubby, arwah Mohd Faris Mohd Shuhaimi yang meninggal dunia tengah malam tadi akibat kemalangan jalan raya di Terengganu.. it was on the news..
Semoga di tempatkan di kalangan orang2 beriman dan semoga roh nya di cucuri rahmat..
" Tok Wi Janggut Merah @ Sheikh Nawawi adalah seorang tokoh ulama' negeri Perak. Bagi menghargai jasanya, sebuah masjid di negeri perak telah dinamakan sebagai Masjid Al-Nawawi sempena nama nya iaitu Tuan Guru SyeikhHaji Nawawi bin Haji Tahir. "
That's my late grandfather, and we called him Tok Wan, I've never had the chance to meet him as he'd already passed away when I was born. And.... yes he was one of the 'Ulama' in Perak, a lil bit about him HERE..
I'm not proud at all to reveal this as I am far far far far from being the kind of a person he was...
Ibadah or akhlak wise..
Nevertheless, I'm striving to be just like him... (ye la tu hehehe)
Just had a long chat with my mom thru Sype just now, and mom suddenly brought up a few things bout him which I think, most of us failed to observe..
Mom said....
Tok wan never complained a single thing, if the coffee was bitter, he just drank them..
If the coffee was too sweet, he just drank them as well..
If the food was salty or tasteless, he just ate them, no grimace, no complain, no nothing...
He never had any preferences for food, he just ate anything that was served to him..
His Principle was, " Rezeki from Allah SWT " just eat them regardless...
He wore the same few " kain pelikat" over and over again, sew necessary patches himself, until they were wearable again...
He loved to make others happy especially children...
He never talked bad about people nor hurt them..
He never raised his voice to his wives nor complained bout anything..
And when his wives complained bout anything at all, he just kept quiet and nodded..
Mom said, he stood up fearlessly in defending Islam and for what's right.. he feared nothing but Allah SWT..
In short, I would say, he was so close to fully following and practicing Rasulullah's way of life...
As believers and followers of Rasulullah, our choices must be within the boundaries of Deen. Deen is that way of life which Rasulullah lived and demonstrated. It is the way of life that Allah has chosen for us.
Allah declares ;
“And I am pleased with Islam as your Deen (religion/way of life).” (Surah 5; Verse 3)
Salam semua, mmmmm.. Semalam dapat satu berita yg sangat2 mengejutkan and sangat2 mengembirakan, one of the most beautiful thing, tak terungkap ngan kata2... ceh wah..
Ape kah ia?
Biarlah rahsia dulu...
Tapi nak share sikit something very important yang saya baru sedar...
Mungkin orang lain dah lama sedar benda ni, saya aje yg ketinggalan zaman, tapi x pe la, daripada tak sedar langsung :)
And dah sedar tu, kenalah usaha perbaiki diri insyaAllah..
Tentang kehidupan kita sebagai seorang Muslim, ramai antara kita yang sudah melaksanakan segala tanggungjawab kita kepada Allah SWT, seperti solat, puasa, membayar zakat, etc etc, tapi ramai yg lupa untuk menjaga hubungan kita sesama manusia...
Berapa ramai yg mampu mengawal diri dari mengumpat, dari sangka buruk, dari bercakap yg sia2, dari hasad dengki, berapa ramai antara kita yg masih mampu tersenyum dan terus berbuat baik pada orang2 yangg telah menyakiti kita..
Berapa ramai antara kita yang ikhlas membantu kawan2 yg dalam kesusahan, tak kisah la camne pun kawan tu, berapa ramai yang sungguh2 memelihara hubungan silaturrahim? dan macam2 lagi...
In short, mencontohi sifat2 Rasulullah...
Saya akui, saya sendiri kadangkala gagal untuk mencontohi sifat2 Rasulullah ni, tapi I will NEVER EVER stop trying.. and I hope all of us will too...
Why did this thought occur to me in the first place?
Sebab tengok kawan2 Deutscher kat sini yang tersangat baik dan sungguh2 membantu kami dan suami dalam segala hal.. sungguh2 membantu yang kadang2 sampai menyusahkan diri mereka sendiri pulak..
And some of them ni not even a Muslim...
So kita sepatutnya, sebagai seorang Muslim mesti la sama baik macam diorang ni atau lebih lagi...
Jadi selain dari tanggugjawab dan kewajipan kita pada Allah yg sungguh2 kita pelihara, jangan lupa juga tanggungjawab dan kewajipan kita sesama manusia.. insyaAllah...
Untuk renungan bersama...
An-Nisaa' (An-Nisa') [4] : ayat 36
[4:36] Sembahlah Allah dan janganlah kamu mempersekutukan-Nya dengan sesuatu pun. Dan berbuat baiklah kepada dua orang ibu-bapa, karib-kerabat, anak-anak yatim, orang-orang miskin, tetangga yang dekat dan tetangga yang jauh, dan teman sejawat, ibnu sabil dan hamba sahayamu. Sesungguhnya Allah tidak menyukai orang-orang yang sombong dan membangga-banggakan diri.
Allah SWT berfirman dalam surah Al Hujurat ayat 13 ;
"Wahai manusia,sesungguhnya kami menciptakan dari seorang lelaki dan perempuan,dan menjadikan kamu berbangsa-bangsa,dan bersuku-suku supaya kamu saling mengenal.Sesungguhnya orang yang paling mulia antara kamu disisi Allah adalah yang paling bertakwa diantara kamu".
Ape pula definasi orang bertakwa?
"Bersegeralah beramal untuk mendapatkan keampunan dari Tuhan mu, dan meraih syurga seluas langit dan bumi yang disediakan bagi mereka yg BERTAKWA, IAITU mereka yg selalu menafkahkan harta, pada saat senang atau susah, dan yg SELALU MENAHAN KEMARAHAN DAN MEMAAFKAN KESALAHAN ORANG LAIN..." Surah Ali-Imran, ayat 133-134.
I said to the intercom. (Hallo with german style ok :D
"Halloo..."
Came a melodical and sweet voice, and she said further...
" bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla..."
This was I think, about a month after we'd settled down in Deutschland... so, it's predictable why I couldn't understand a thing... hehehe..
So I quickly asked her if she speaks English?
A moment of hesitation, then she said,
"A little bit.."
Then she started talking with her own hentam kromo English, I couldn't recall her exact sentences, but it was something like this..
" I want explain Bible... explain bout Bible.. more people read Bible..."
Wow! She really tried ! I was amazed..
Walaupun ngan susah payah dia nak buat ayat..
So, realizing what she's getting at, I quickly said,
" Oh that's ok, I'm not into Bible.."
But she didn't give up, she asked me to listen first to what she had to say and let her come upstairs..
What?
Wow she's really serious...
What should I say, what should I say..?
Ok simple,
"No, it's ok, I'm a Muslim.."
Oh, that really did it, she was quiet for a moment and then she repeat after me,
"A Muslim...?"
"Yes.. " I said with a smile..
And, I could really detect the note of disappointment in her voice as she said..
"Ok, thank you very much.."
And off she went..
A few months after that, another person came with the same intention, this time a man, and this time I understood what he said but I couldn't quite make sentences yet in Deutsch, so I asked if he speaks English..?
mmmm...
He tried though it wasn't perfect, and the moment I told him,
" I'm a Muslim ",
he quickly surrendered and said,
" Oh, ok..."
And a few weeks ago, the same thing happened again, this time a lady, who voluntarily speak in English though I didn't even ask her to..
And as determined as the previous two, she started explaining her intention;
" To explain and encourage more people to read the Bible..."
My magic word is,
" Sorry, I'm a Muslim.."
Every time, this magic word really WORKS..!
I could really detect the note of surrendering in their voices once they knew I'm a Muslim..
It makes me wonder of two things;
~~ Is there any Muslim going around as strong as these three, explaining about the Qur'an and encouraging people to read the Qur'an? These were three that I've encountered, what bout those that I haven't encountered? How many of them actually? How come nobody Buzz my door to explain bout the Qur'an? Ok, maybe because this is Deutschland, majority are Christians..
But, how bout Malaysia? Salesman datang ade la kot hehe..
~~ Secondly, hey, Islam is a strong Religion.. they didn't dare persuading me any further once they knew I'm a Muslim...
I was watching this video yesterday, maybe most of you have watched it, hehehe as usual i'm a bit 'ketinggalan zaman', but it's ok, most importantly how it could change my life :)
Subahanallah, I was so emotionally effected by this video for two reasons;
~ I was just like Wardina when I was young, mmmm now pun still young actually hehe (tak mo ngaku dah tua)
I mean, I used to be soooooo stubborn, I mixed with the wrong people and friends, I've never listened to my mother, I believe I could lead my own life.. and I made her cry too huhu..
This was at the peak of my Zaman Jahilliyyah... huhu..
but Alhamdulillah, I've never went too far, though friends did persuade me to come with them to Discos, parties etc etc...
mmmm... maybe doa mak la tu that I couldn't bring myself to go clubbing.. :)
All these happened before I went to UIA, well UIA did contribute a lot in making me a better Muslimah :)
So don't be afraid to send your kids to Islamic school or University ok !!
~ Secondly, Ooohhh indah nya hidayah Allah.... and I've never realized until yesterday, that Allah has also granted me with Hidayah, which makes me the way I am today.... mmmm, tak la baik sangat, but striving to be one, to be a good Muslimah... InsyaAllah...
And what Wardina said bout Allah will send a great and wonderful friends around once we'd decided to be a good person, oh my, that is sooooo true...
I'm so blessed with wonderful friends around, yang mengajak pada kebaikan dan majlis ilmu, jujur dan ikhlas, yang taat menunaikan perintah Allah SWT, seperti solat dalam ape jua keadaan, dalam bas ke, train ke, shopping complex ke, tidak semudah2 meninggalkan solat dan meng qada kemudian, I'm so amazed with some of them.. Taught us on how to be a good Muslim too...
It's never too late to be a good Muslim, everyone at least once in their lives must have made mistakes, huge or small, either to Allah SWT or to human being, but it's never too late to fix it... even if some people might not really forgive you for your mistakes and still look down at your effort of trying to be a good person, just let them be...
Let them think whatever they want to think bout you or being prejudice towards you, hold your head up high, and tell yourself, Allah is always there for you and Allah will never judge you the way human beings often do...
Lastly, nak petik kata2 Siti Hajar, salah sorang kawan yg sangat sy hargai di bumi Deutschland;
"Sesungguhnya, apabila aku menasihati kamu, bukanlah bererti akulah yang terbaik dari kalangan kamu, Bukan juga yg paling soleh dari kalangan kamu, kerana aku juga pernah melampaui batas untuk diri sendiri. Seandainya seseorang itu hanya dapat menyampaikan dakwah apabila dia sempurna, nescaya tidak akan ada pendakwah. Maka akan jadi sikitlah orang yang memberi peringatan." Kata2 Hasan al-Basri.
A few days ago, hubby read this; SINI, and he discovered this;
“Dan Kami wajibkan manusia berbuat baik kepada kedua ibu bapanya; ibunya telah mengandungnya dengan menanggung susah payah dan telah melahirkannya dengan menanggung susah payah. Sedang tempoh mengandungnya beserta dengan tempoh menceraikan susunya ialah dalam masa tiga puluh bulan. Setelah ia besar sampai ke peringkat dewasa yang sempurna kekuatannya dan sampai ke peringkat umur empat puluh tahun, berdoalah ia dengan berkata: “Wahai Tuhanku, ilhamkanlah daku supaya tetap bersyukur akan nikmatmu yang engkau kurniakan kepadaku dan kepada ibu bapaku, dan supaya aku tetap mengerjakan amal soleh yang Engkau redai; dan jadikanlah sifat-sifat kebaikan meresap masuk ke dalam jiwa zuriat keturunanku. Sesungguhnya aku bertaubat kepadamu, dan sesungguhnya aku dari orang-orang Islam (yang tunduk patuh kepadamu)” [Al-Ahqaaf 46: 15]
Nampak tak, kenapa Allah sebut umur 40 tahun, kenapa tidak 30 ke, 35 ke, or any other figure? Ada something dengan umur 40 tahun ni, and whoever came up with this saying;
"Life begins at 40...",
that person must have discovered something bout this age, even if he's not a Muslim or that he discovered it on his own or thru research., the thing is written in the Quran all along, since long time ago...
But, only a few days ago that we discovered this??
That make me questioned myself, I've been on this earth for 31 years and yet, have I read the entire meaning of what's written in the Quran...?
Sadly, the answer is NO...
Have you?
Perhaps, kalau di biarkan, sampai ajal datang menjemput pun, mungkin masih belum habis membaca semua maksud ayat2 dalam Al-Quran...
Kalau ditanya tentang khatam Quran, semua orang pernah khatam, 3 kali, 5 kali, 10 kali, tapi berapa kali kita cuba memahami ayat2 Allah ni?
Suddenly, I'm reminded of my own story, bout 10 years ago, one of my lecturer, he was a Chinese man, was telling us bout alcoholic drink proven fact, he said research has been done on alcoholic drink and it showed that alcoholic drink is good for our body, I couldn't quite recall what was the good thing, but I remember him expressing his dissatisfaction for some religion that didn't allow alcohol consumption.
mmmm.... die refer pada Islam la sebenarnye kot...
So, I sat quietly, being the only Muslim in the class, I felt a bit awkward.. and I did wonder;
'Kenapa ye Allah tak bagi kita minum arak, kalau dah terbukti arak tu bagus, kenapa Allah x cakap certain quantity je bole minum ke?'
Tapi Allah haramkan terus...
Back then, I didn't bother trying to find the answer out, I was in my zaman Jahiliyyah huhu..
Only recently that I discovered this ayat;
~~Mereka bertanya mengenai ARAK dan judi, katakanlah, "Di dalam ARAK dan judi ada dosa besar dan ada MANFAAT bagi manusia, tetapi dosanya jauh lebih besar daripada manfaatnya.."~~ Surah Al-Baqarah, ayat 219.
Subahanallah, it's written in the Quran, everything is in the Quran, you just have to read, read and read !! After more than 10 years baru jumpa jawapan nya, and the answer is always there, right there, all the time... but it's just me who never bother to read !!
So to all, baca lah Al-Quran dan fahamilah ia... you'll be surprised with what you'll discover...
One day, on my way home from class, it was cold, perhaps 2 degree, saw a makcik dengan tudung, jubah standing outside a restaurant, whilst... SMOKING... hehe...
cam x kena je nampak, so what?? she was alone, no one was near her, she's not damaging anyone else's lungs..
A few days ago pun, saw the same thing, but from different makcik, but the same appearance and also alone, away from people...
And that reminds me of one of Hubby's friend, he came over to our place with his wife, both were Muslims, his wife had hijab on, and then after they've finished eating, suddenly both of them requested to go outside to Smoke heheh.. both of them, husband and wife,
so we let them smoke by the window instead... hehe..
Smoking is so common here especially during this cold season, everyone smokes tak kira lelaki atau perempuan..
tapi kalau kat malaysia, lelaki smoke tu perkara biasa, tapi perempuan???
huhuhu.. sy biasa dengar ayat ni,
"heee menyampah tengok si **tuuuuuut***, ade ke perempuan hisap rokok.."
ataupun..
"tak suke die tu, perempuan tapi merokok, menyampah..."
tak kira lah perempuan tu baik camne pun, tapi sebab die merokok terus die di label teruk, jahat so on and so forth..
Tapi lelaki merokok x pe, sebab perception orang melayu begitu, perempuan yg merokok, perempuan yg jahat.. kan bagus klu perception begitu di apply for both men and woman... atau jangan ade perception langsung, kan lagi bagus..
heheh saya bukan lah penyokong mereka yang merokok, merokok tu membahayakan kesihatan, tapi saya juga tidak la memasang slogan ,
"Saya tak kawan awak sebab awak merokok..."
saya cuma berslogan (satu masa dahulu),
"Saya tak nak kahwin ngan awak sebab awak merokok..." hehe
Alhamdulillah, suami saya bukanlah seorang perokok...
Saya tidak membenci mereka yg merokok, cuma menyampah kalau orang tu merokok dekat2 saya dan anak2, tak kira la lelaki atau perempuan, sebab die dah membahayakan kesihatan saya dan anak2...
tapi kalau die merokok sorang2 di kejauhan, merosakkan paru2 die seorang aje, x kisah la lelaki atau perempuan, then sy tak ade masalah dengan orang tu, and sy tak kan judge or label die dengan ape2 label buruk..
Kebanyakan orang2 kita, suka meng judge,
Why judge?
Sedangkan kita tak tau hati budi seseorang tu sebenar2 nya, and paling penting, siapa die di sisi Allah SWT...
Barangkali di sisi Allah SWT, die lebih layak untuk syurga dari diri kita sendiri...
Salam Monday to all, as usual Monday blues for all, and Afeef's usual question every Monday morning,
"Nape kita kena pergi School ??"
Hehe pening kepala mama nak jawab,
so I answered my usual answer for the millionth times laa hehe..
Needless to say what my answer was, I believe all mom has the same answer :)
Today nak cakap sket pasal "Kelab Taat Suami"
Waaa apa itu, rasa nye semua orang tau kot.. kalau tak tau bole klik SINI.
I think, daripada tubuh "Kelab Taat Suami" yg lebih menekankan isu2 seksual and menyalahkan wanita semata2 sbg punca keretakan rumahtangga, kan lebih baik tubuhkan kelab
"Suami Isteri Soleh Solehah"
Kalau suami soleh, sudah pasti die akan sedaya upaya cuba menjaga hati isteri seprtimana Rasullullah menjaga hati isteri2 baginda, and bile suami dah soleh and baik, mudah saja untuk isteri2 mentaati.. It's that simple..
Kata pengasas "Kelab Taat Suami" ni jugak, kalau dapat suami pendera, si isteri harus lah bersabar dan anggap lah ia sebagai ujian hehe.. (bukan menganiaya diri sendiri ke tu??)
Ade jugak ustaz yg cakap, kalau dapat suami pendera and x bertanggungjawab ni, itu salah isteri tu sendiri kerana tak selidik betul2 backrgound lelaki tu sebelum berkahwin.. hehe
Begitu mudah wanita dipersalahkan...
Kalau tak kawin sampai ke tua, orang kata pulak,
"Jangan memilih sangat, ambik je la mana yg ade, asalkan kawin, nanti Nabi tak mengaku umat.. !" hehe..
Ingin nak petik kata2 kakak saya,
"Beli ikan kat pasar pun orang pilih beria, ape ke lagi teman hidup.."
Tuntutan untuk mentaati suami ni bukan mudah, even seorang anak pun kadang2 gagal mentaati seorang ibu yg dah bersusah payah melahirkan dan membesarkan, apatah lagi seorang isteri kepada suami...
Tapi ianya perintah Allah SWT, dan kenapa Allah perintah begitu? Simply kerana tanggungjawab suami tu sgt besar, dan suami jugalah yg menanggung segala dosa isteri...
Pada saya, mudah saja untuk mentaati suami kalau suami itu seorang yang baik dan bertimbang rasa, menghormati dan menyayangi, bertanggungjawab, pendek kata, dia patuh perintah Allah dan cuba sedaya upaya untuk mencontohi Rasullullah...
Kalau la ustaz2 sering menekankan para suami supaya mencontohi sifat2 Rasullullah dalam segala hal seperti mana mereka menekankan ketaatan isteri pada suami, tentu lebih banyak improvement yg dapat kita lihat dalam institusi rumahtangga...
So, to all woman yang dalam dilema berdepan dengan suami yg tak bertanggungjawab nih, Allah itu maha mengetahui, do what you think is best for yourself, tapi selepas bertawakal kpd Allah lah, jangan biar diri menderita dan teraniaya.. :)
** Untuk artikel yang menarik berkaitan isu Kelab Taat Suami, klik SINI.
Semalam, saya menerangkan maksud surah Al-Fatihah pada Afeef.. Afeef sungguh khusyuk mendengar, tapi saya tiba2 sebak, tak dapat menahan air mata and suara pun terketar2 tiba2, iaitu di ayat 5 dan 6;
"Tunjukkan kami jalan yang lurus, iaitu jalan orang2 yang telah engkau kurniakan nikmat dan bukan pula jalan orang2 yang sesat..."
Afeef pun panik and cakap;
"Mama!! kenape nih??? Kenape mama nangis??!!" Afeef buat salah ke??"
Ya Allah, baik nye anak bujang ku ini :) sentiasa sensitif... dapat anak yang baik jugak satu rezeki kan.. syukur Alhamdulillah..
"Bukan sebab Afeef, mama nangis sebab mama banyak dosa..."
Ada kala kita alpa & lupa...
Seringkali melakukan kesilapan...
Mungkin kita tidak jujur, mungkin kita tidak menjaga tutur kata, atau mungkin kita bercakap perkara yang sia2...
Apa pun kesilapan kita, mungkin ada hati yang telah kita sakiti, dan mungkin kita tidak menyedarinya..
Dengan satu kesilapan yang kita lakukan, kita terus di label seorang yang teruk..
Segala perbuatan baik kita, dipandang serong..
Keinsafan itu satu rezeki, bila mana kita insaf dan memohon maaf, mungkin ade hati yang tidak mahu memaafkan, masih mahu mengungkit atau berdendam...
Pesan orang2 yang berpengalaman, selalulah beringat, jangan sakiti hati sesiapa...
Tapi, dengan pengalaman lah kita belajar untuk beringat..
Dalam mencari pengalaman, mungkin ada salah silap yang kita lakukan..
Lumrah manusia...
Pada orang yang pernah kita sakiti, mungkin dia juga pernah menyakiti hati orang lain sehingga mungkin ada yang berdendam dengan dia..
Dan, dalam diri kita juga, mungkin ada menyimpan dendam terhadap sesiapa juga yang pernah menyakiti hati kita...
Jadi, bukalah hati untuk memaafkan, moga dengan itu, Allah SWT bukakan hati mereka yang menyimpan perasaan dendam terhadap kita untuk memaafkan kita, sekaligus terbuka juga hati mereka yang menyimpan dendam terhadap dia untuk memaafkan dia...
Pada semua, saya mohon maaf atas segala salah silap...
Sempena Ramadhan yang hampir tiba, moga hati kita bersih dari segala hasad dengki, iri hati, dendam dan segala penyakit hati...
Kepada teman seUsrah, terima kasih atas peringatan..
Katanya; kefahaman itu rezeki.. terbuka hati untuk menginsafi perbuatan dan bertaubat juga satu rezeki..
Moga kesilapan lalu tak berulang lagi... insyaAllah...
Before We Talk Bout What We Want, Appreciate What We Have Before It's Gone...
I OpEnEd My WaLLeT, FoUNd iT EmPtY, ReAcHEd InTo mY PoCKeT FoUNd a FeW CoiNs, SeArcHEd mY HeARt aNd FoUnD YoU, ThEn I ReALizEd HoW RiCH I Am CoZ I HaVE YoU!!
