Rapuh....

Oh I have lots and lots of drafts...

None of them were complete..

How am I feeling right now? 

"RAPUH..."

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I just wanna be close to Him....

:')

SoMebOdY JuST TuRnED 4 !!! Alhamdulillah...

There were times, out of the blue, all the memories came flooding back... 

Some were too overwhelming that I found myself in tears... 

Adoi..

Still without fail, I'm able to hide all these feelings from my kids.. 

Because, they seemed like they have really moved on, and enjoy this new life we have...

But me... I still long for that life I once had..... Yeah yeah... I'm tired of all these....

Nevertheless, I have my piano back, that of course made some difference... 

You can check out my latest cover at You Tube, if anyone's interested at all.. hehe

Anyway, last friday, 28th of Mac, was Aleena's 4th birthday. Her first ever birthday in Malaysia :)

Not just that, it's been exactly 3 months since the day we left Deutschland for good. And I recalled, that Aleena's birthday had always been my favorite time because... it marked the beginning of Spring! 

So, this year's birthday, no more Spring, only the extra heat hehe..

She has had 3 birthdays before, her first in 2011:

She's one year old (",)

Tengok gambar ni pun bergenang air mata isk isk..

Emotional tahap gaban haha.

Her second Birthday in 2012:

Celebrated with Mike, Lily, Victor and Florian...

Haaaiiiiiihhhhh... 

Memorable moment (",)

And her third Birthday, 2013, one of the most meaningful, celebrated in my sister's home in UK, and my mom was there too..

It was a late night surprise by my sister and her husband, so sweet of them (",)

Huhuhuhuhu.... all these memories...

They only make me wanna cry!!!

Ok, ok, before I got all emotional, lets proceed with the Birthday girl..

What's best to describe her?

mmmmmmmmmm....

Let's see....

Many says,  she's beautiful, with her long lashes and all, she'd drawn lots of attentions from people around her, including the Germans.

Haaaa... tak percaya ke?

You don't have to look closely to notice those eye lashes!

I still wonder till today, from whom had she got it from.

I don't have it, hubby doesn't too..

Now she's a big girl, but not so big just yet, but she definitely has a huge appetite!!

mmmmmm....

Ice cream.... mmmmmmmm... 

Cake Ice cream la pulak... mmmmmm...

 Even though she wasn't born in Germany, but I was pregnant with her on my first few months there..

And she was only 3 months when we got back to Germany..

All the memories she had in her head was Germany...

She grew up there.. Germany was the only place she had ever known...

It's no wonder why until today she still talks about our home in Germany.

Nevertheless, she enjoys life in Malaysia so much!!

Happy Birthday Dearest Aleena...

You may not remember Germany anymore someday...

All those memories you had there will vanish from your head, or maybe you will remember some vaguely....

But, when you read this someday, know that we have had the most wonderful times together there in Germany, and insyaAllah here in Malaysia too...

To my Aleena, my doa is always with you, may Allah SWT guide you through the right path always always...

You complete us... (",)

~~~ One Sweet Day ~~~

~~~~~~~~Kenangan kami~~~~~~~

Till later, Salam..