A change of HEART... :)

Salam...

Today, the first of Ramadhan, I've just made a whole new huge turn in my life...

 I've managed to overcome my fears, I've managed to force myself to do something I really didn't want to do, but it's what I should do, because it's the right thing to do, no doubt about it, because I know, if I do it, Allah will be happy and hubby will be happy too... 

And I've successfully did it with confidence too!!

A few months ago, when I was soooooo close to quitting Usrah, I desperately needed something to change my heart, and there it was... Allah had helped... Allah showed me the way, he had guided me, where I should go, what I should see, what I should learn from that... He'd helped open my heart again through people and friends around me... 

Today, I desperately needed something again to prevent me from making the wrong decision, in that short moment I had to make the decision, and when I was soooooo close to making the wrong decision again, and I kept asking for help and... AGAIN Allah had helped.. 

The short tazkirah after Tadarus session today was just what I needed... 

How a little tazkirah could change my heart entirely amazed me... 

But actually, a little tazkirah could only make you realize of the good and right things you should do in life, but, only Allah can give you the strength and courage to do it and only Allah can change your heart.. Only Allah can do it... 

If we have faith in Allah, everything in Life will be easy...

 We'll have no more fears, no more uncertainties... Life will feel complete...

So, today's Tadarus, we had covered Juz 2 of Surah Al-Baqarah.. And since I was the one appointed to read the meaning of some of the Ayat, I found this profound ayat touched my heart so deeply... 

"And when My servants ask you about Me, of course, I am near. I respond to the call of one when he prays to Me;'so they should respond to Me, and have faith in Me so that they may be on the right path." (2:186) 

See how true it is.... 

Allah is near and He responds to our call.. Just have faith in Him, have faith in Him, have faith in Him... Always always...

Today, the 1st of Ramadhan, marked a new beginning in my life and a deeper meaning.. 

I've succeeded in something, I've managed to overcome my fears and fight uncertainties, and have strong faith in Allah SWT!!

So, if I could do it, so CAN YOU!!

Lets fight and do ibadah endlessly for this Ramadhan, it could be our last, we never know.. 

May Allah bless all of us.. 

Remember, He's near and He listens...

Till later, Salam... 

Afeef, Karate And Tournament :)

Salam...

As I wrote before, I can't wait to write about Afeef's karate tournament!!!

Yeah, Afeef has had Yellow belt in karate.

I wouldn't really say Karate is Afeef's cup of tea, but he did receive compliments every now and then from his Sensei :)

And according to hubby who'd always been the one taking Afeef to Karate sessions twice a week, Afeef is one of Sensei's favourite!

Wow... Really???!!

Judging from Afeef's performance in last Saturday's tournament, I found it hard to believe that he's one of sensei's favorite??!!

Hahahaha!

Ok, ok, he did everything correctly, no mistakes, and everything was perfect only that, he's less aggressive, his movements were a lil bit too slow and not rough enough or fast enough unlike the others...

So, I guess, the reason why he's one of Sensei's favorite is probably because he's an obedient boy and quiet too hehe.. 

Way to go Afeef...

He'd been soooo excited about this Tournament that he kept telling me about the medal, the trophy that the 1st, 2nd, 3rd and 4th place would received. 

As for me, I knew this was so important to him but I didn't know how much, until the moment I entered the huge hall, and watched him so nervous and fidgeting in his seat.

I asked him how he'd felt at that time, and he said, sooooo nervous that he had butterfly in his stomach :D

Well yeah, he looked nervous too.. 

I kept telling him, no matter what, if he loses or wins, he's still a winner to me. 

It's the efforts that matters not the medals...

So, when Afeef 's turn was about to come, I was soooooo unexpectedly nervous!

My heart was beating wildly, my stomach churned, anxiety filled me, and it worsened when I saw one boy cried after he'd lost to his partner.

Oh, I knew at that instance why I was soooo anxious... 

Because I was scared... I was worried...

Scared and worried to see how sad he would be if he'd lost... 

He'd been hoping to bring one medal home!!

Well... Life don't always turns out the way you wanted them to be....

He'd lost to this girl, Miryam..

Funny thing was, hubby said so confidently to me, not to worry, Miryam wasn't so good, Afeef's better than her...

Yeah right....

Hubby had mistaken her with another girl!!

Miryam had eventually turned out to be the champion!!

So Afeef was a bit unfortunate to have had his first round with a Champion, so he'd lost the first round.

mmmmmmmm...

I saw the disappointment on Afeef's face, and felt bad throughout the competition.. 

She was fast, precise, and accurate..

Yes, she has what it takes to be the champion!

She deserves to win!!

If you wonder why Afeef wore red belt, it was just to differentiate the points received by each one of them. There were a few people sitting around them holding red and white flags. Red flag represents Afeef and white flag represent Miryam.

And if you wanna know which one is the Sensei, that huge guy with the orange T-shirt at the back, that's him!

After the competition was over, Afeef told me that despite his loss, Deter (the Sensei) told him that he was good!

So sweet of him :)

At least Afeef felt good about himself because of his words... 

I kept telling Afeef that it's ok to lose..

Competition isn't always about winning, it's also about having fun with friends, accepting losses and be happy for those who'd won, and strive harder after this because at least now, he knew how it feels like to fall, to be at the bottom, to lose...

I'm soooo proud of him for his ability to accept losses so positively... 

So so so proud of him..

I guess, I couldn't be even prouder if he'd won the 1st place!!

That was all about Karate Tournament, we had cakes and drinks afterwards outside the hall, then we rushed to Gartenschau for Afeef's school gathering. Later I'll update about that insyaAllah..

Till later, Salam...

PS: Sorry if there's any mistakes in my English or writing or spelling... My English isn't perfect but I'm trying my best to make it perfect.. insyaAllah...

:)