A Little SoMeThiNg.....

Assalamualaikum wbt..

One of the best thing about writing a blog is that, the surprises it'll give you when you go through any of your posts again later, and discover that you've totally forgotten certain things that have happened!

 I've been reading a few entries just to recall some stories from our life in DE, of course only stories in DE that I have ever had in this blog because I've decided to start blogging only when I discovered that hubby had to further studies there. So, I was thinking to put our new journey there into writing, coz pictures won't be enough, and I was right.

I was reading this ENTRY again the other day and was surprised to find how confident I was about starting our new life in Malaysia.

And how determined I was to make things happen!

Maybe the determination wasn't so obvious in that writing, but as I was reading it, it's all coming back to me, I remember all the feelings so clearly, the determinations, the confidence...

I closed my eyes and I saw everything so vividly again :)

There we were, going up the hill, hand in hand, having had one of the most wonderful moments with the kids, met Afeef's teacher and the sadness we all felt at the ideas of leaving Germany for good :(

So, I did remember, I've promised, I would never want to wait for things to happen, instead I'll make them happen! 

So ok, lets add some colors to the already beautiful life (",)

What's new? 

Ahah... Afeef brought a friend home!

The first friend to come over.

He was sooooo excited about it, I'm so happy to see Afeef moving on so well!

Please pay no attention to the girl on the right :P

Sibuk lebih tu, but the funniest part was when she frantically searched for her 'tudung' when Afeef's friend came over.

She said: "Ada boy datang, Fatini kena pakai tudung!!!"

Haha, thanx to PASTI :D

And also.....

Swimming lesson!!!

Fatini was supposed to join too, but I haven't gotten her the 'Muslimah swimsuit'

just yet, so she refused to join the 1st lesson. Punya lah alim... Haha..

So, I am now in the process of finding the cutes Muslimah swimsuit for girls (",)

Ok, what's more???

Just when my spirit was lifted so high and I was so full of determination for the days ahead, Fatini was down with a high fever....

*sigh*

Again, there we were in Pekan hospital, with the wonderful people around.. (",)

At 1am in the morning, they've never failed to smile and showed their care and concern!

I just love the people there so much!

Oh poor Fatini, her first experience with the needle in her, it turned out she had not a serious bladder infection, and she has recovered today (",)

Alhamdulillah for a little test from Allah SWT..

It makes me stronger each day and it makes me appreciate life even more...

Life, wherever we live it, is a blessing from Allah SWT.

Ps: Still thinking of the missing aircraft.... Lets doa and doa and doa...

Till later, salam...

The Popular Boy...

Assalamualaikum wbt....

I asked him the other day, what does he likes most about his school and new class?

He said, being the most popular boy in school is what he enjoy most.

What??!!

Is he really that popular??

Oh yesss...

You won't believe it, but that's really what's happening now.. He's the most popular boy in school, everyone knows him, simply because he just came back from Germany!

Ok, perhaps, if we are now in huge city like Kuala Lumpur, this is probably nothing, but since we are now in Pekan pahang, not a huge town, so Afeef became too popular.

Haaaaaiiiihhh...

Afeef enjoyed it very much, but as for me, the low profile, and the kind who love to stay behind the curtain kind of person, I found this quite uncomfortable.

Everyone stares at me whenever I'm there!!!!

Ok, enough of that, so I asked him, what is his favorite subject in school?

He said~~ History, Pendidikan Islam (don't know how this is called in english), Mathematics, and Science!

Wow, what a combination!

He said he kinda enjoy school nowadays, "because he's tooooo Popular" :P

And when I asked, if he ever feels bored in school, for all different subjects compared to DE, 

he said, it doesn't matter if certain subject doesn't interest him, he's there in school for the knowledge, so he'll learn them regardless!

Wow! 

I never think the way he does until I've finished University!

Being the typical Malaysian mom before I went to DE, I've always wanted Afeef to be the best in class, the best in school if possible, but, after 4 years in DE, I've learnt a lot, that I realised, it's not number 1 and the best student in class that I'm after, it's the knowledge, and how we apply what we've learned in life, that's what matters.

So I told him, "Don't stress yourself with the competitive behaviour of some people, just go with your own pace, and never forget to pray and make doa everyday."

Not every succesfull people started off good you know.. Hehe..

Afeef may be a bit left behind now, but I believe, he'll really achieve something in the future insyaAllah..

By the way, this is our neighborhood now...

Isn't it nice?

(",)

I know I shouldn't be thinking about our home in Kaiserslautern Germany anymore, I'm here now, and it is a very peaceful place, and the kids are adapting well too and they love this new neighborhood.... but still from time to time, I couldn't help myself, those images keep flashing in my head, those moments when I oppened the window and watched the beautiful Spring lights, those beautiful sunsets from our window, those routines....

But, there's always a beautiful sunset that I can always gaze at here too, here in our new neighborhood...

Just as beautiful... 

*****sigh*****

I wouldn't trade anything in this world, not even the kind of life I once had in DE for these positiv changes in my children, they talked about Allah, Rasulullah almost all the time, they've memorized surah so fast...

It made me think, this is the Hikmah of coming back to Malaysia and I don't have to wait long to see it.

(",)

So, Life goes on...

& 

Life's Like That...

Till later, Salam...

There were some things you accepted might happen in your life, and others that were less likely. 

Like... My dream to live my life in Europe... Errrr... Which is so high unlikely to happen, but I accepted it as something which might happen in the future though it seems impossible... 

But.. I still think I might stand a chance.... Bla bla bla.... 

Anyway, there are a few things I wanna highlight here..

Number 1: I live in Pekan Pahang, where the internet service is super duper fast that I have to only wait till I'm at mom's place to update this blog. Yeah, mom's place has got wifi...

Number 2: I have lots of stories to tell, but I hardly have time! I'm far busier now than when I was in DE. 

Why? 

I have some extra work that I never had to bother when I was in DE:

~~ I have to make sure the house is thoroughly clean everyday, THOROUGHLY CLEAN OK! 

As this will help prevent insects from getting into the house, which in turns, no lizards will want to get inside too, otherwise the kids will go crazy! 

This is hard work that you must not take lightly, sometimes I feel so helpless trying my best to prevent these tiny creatures from getting inside and still I found them inside the house every now and then, that I feel like begging them, 

"Please please please don't sneak into our home! My kids have so much fear for you guys, so please please leave us alone!!"

Or maybe I should just write on a piece of paper: 

"Lizards not allowed to enter." 

And paste it on our door.

Mmmmmm... Do you think that might work?

Anyway, Number 3: Afeef is recovering, alhamdulillah...

He was admitted a few weeks ago, a huge blow for me... 

I was lost and confused since the day we moved to Pekan, hating this place so much and the people in it, and this blow brought me back on track, it made me think and had open my eyes..

Afeef had 4 visits to Pekan hospital due to persistent and endless tummy pain.

During that 4 visits, the staffs there had come to know him, some really showed so much concerns and care that I just couldn't help myself but feel sooooooo touched and most of the times I felt like crying for their kindness.

Why shouldn't I be? All my life, I believed the only way to get the best treatment is to go to private hospitals, errrrrrr... Not the best treatment, but there in private hospital is where the doctors and nurses are kind because we pay them rite?? 

So, here's the thing, we paid not a single cent to Pekan hospital, but yet, they were super kind and extra nice to us! 

They all cared, and the best part was, I knew they're sincere! 

Yeah yeah.... I always adored my life in DE, the kind people there, and I thought I would never meet those kind and sincere people anymore, but I just did... Pekan Hospital's staffs had taught me valuable lessons and I'm totally grateful. 

Number 4: Afeef has started schooling again, alhamdulillah... But now in different class.. He's been transfered to the bottom class. Am I ashamed of this??

No, of course not... I'm proud of Afeef, always.... 

My biggest worry when he was put in the last class was that; 

He would mingle with less educated people, would they treat him nice?

Things always turned out unexpectedly... Afeef now has a very kind friend who helped him a lot, and cared  for him too, took good care of Afeef while Afeef was in school and he's the one accompanying Afeef anywhere he needs to go... When Afeef's in pain, he'd helped buy food for Afeef. Hey, nice people are everywhere, regardless! 

As for me, I am starting to really love this new neighbourhood and its own tranquility... 

Of course, not the same as the one I had in DE, but... Close... (",)

Waiting for another interesting something next year insyaAllah...  (",)

Nevertheless, I still miss this place terribly....

I am never gonna get over it, am I?

Hehehe..

Till later, Salam....

FirSt & LaSt... (",)

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Pheeeeewwwwww.......

A lot of things happened for these past few days, good, bad, and of course lots of new lessons learnt too... 

Yeah, we always want to share all the good news with others and keep the bad ones only to ourselves, that's human... We want people to think that we are happy all the times!!

but... That's not what life is all about, life has ups and downs, and by sharing the downs, you could possibly help others too.. 

I would love to share what I've gone through for these past few days and lessons learnt from it....

But, I'm gonna need sometimes to write about it. 

For today, I just wanna share a lil bit more about DE hehe!! Tak habis2....

Hey, Don't get me wrong, I'm actually turning a new leaf!!

Actually, I've been looking for this particular photo for a few months, but couldn't find it, I thought I have inadvertantly deleted it from my PC and camera, and was about to give up hope and get over it a few days ago, when I suddenly found it again!

Hoooraaayyyyy!!

Why is this photo so important anyway????

This was our last snowfall in Kaiserslautern Germany!! 

It was in Mac 2013, we didn't expect snowfall at all, it was suppoesed to be the time for Frühling (Spring)!!!

But, we were out in town, it was unexpectedly cold outside, and suddenly, snow fell down so heavily!

One of the heaviest I've ever experienced in my 4 years there. So, we quickly snapped this photo. 

I remember telling hubby, "This could be our last snowfall here.."

And it's true.. It was our last snowfall in Deutschland :') 

It was one of the most memorable moments in DE... Yes it was... (",)

And this.....

..... was our very first day experiencing snowfall there... 

This photo warms my heart everytime I look at it... 

Our very first snowfall!!

It means so much to me...

It was in December 2009, We just moved in into our home, a few days later it started snowing, we were all super excited and of course very 'jakun' hehehe! 

Oh, those memories.... 

I was pregnant with Aleena, that's why she's not in this photo ;)

Afeef was 5 and Fatini was 2 years old... 

Memories are what we have with us now.... The kids and I still reminisce about our times there once in a while... we talked about it, we laughed at certain memories, we tried hard to remember every single thing in the house, every corner of the house....but we don't really feel the pain of losing something anymore, it's more like sharing our feelings and making sure non of us forget how the place was once looked like, and every route we used to take.. 

Mmmmmm.... Get over it ok!! 

Okay, okay.... I'm almost there! There, where every memories don't hurt anymore, instead they make me smile, and I'm grateful for their existence in my life :)

Ok la, enough of the past, just to share those two most important moments in my life, captured and saved in this blog forever... InsyaAllah...

Life's Like That...

Till later, Salam....

(",)

A New Beginning... (",)

Assalamualaikum wbt...

It's been more than a month since the day we left DE for good...

But, I'm still not 100% over it...

I don't wanna cling so strongly to those memories, but... 

They keep haunting me!

Every single thing I do, remind me of something related to our life in DE!

Haaaaaiiihhhh....

Yeah, never mind, Time will heal... I'm grateful to have my family with me even if I can't have my life in DE again... There are lots of other good things here anyway, and I just have to open my eyes and be thankful for what I have, for instance, I have a new job now...

 I'm a driver!

Errrrrrrrr.... actually, I have always been a driver, only in DE I've done the job without a car.. mmmmm... whatever..

So, this time, I really am a driver, I picked them both up everyday from school!

First Fatini, then Afeef with Aleena as my co driver hehe...

So, this is Afeef infront of his new school:

This was the day when he had Maulidul Rasul celebration... 

Wow! Handsome tak??

He called it, baju Malaysia.. Baju Melayu la Afeef! hehe...

I kinda enjoy my new routine now, sometimes I took the kids to Ice cream store after school, there's Secret Recipe nearby too, and a Satay house, hey, Pekan Pahang isn't so bad after all!! ;)

Still, there isn't a day that gone by without me thinking of our life in Germany.. **sigh***

It's ok, life isn't always a bed of roses, this worldly life is nothing but just pastime and game... 

Life's Like That...

I guess, I'm finally ready for a new beginning... 

But, life in Deutschland will remain as the most beautiful memories I've ever had in my 34 years of Life..

And I know, after this, every year in Mac, I'll think of Spring, every June, I'll think of Summer, every September I'll think of Autumn and every December, I'll think of Winter :)

My only wish is to have the chance to experience those seasons again, no where else but in Kaiserslautern Germany..... insyaAllah :)

Ok, lastly, this is suppossed to be an entry about Fatini's Birthday on the 30th January which was last Thursday. But, I've been busy that I hadn't had the time to update.

And, there's not much to say except that, she's the happiest person nowadays, who enjoyed life in Malaysia very much!

She has best friends already and I'm so happy for you Fatini Az-Zahra, you are 6 years old now, a big girl!

My doa is always with you, may Allah SWT guide you through always2...

:)

This year's Birthday was far more meaningful and memorable, celebrated with Tok, aunties, uncles, cousins, and best of all, with her favorite Aunty!

Happy 6th Birthday Fatini...

You complete us..

(",)

Till later, Salam..