Beautiful Sunny Days.... (",)

Finally, she smiles...

She really really smiles!!!

I bet some of you are probably wondering, 

"What is going on?? Who is she???.."

Well, it's a long story... 

I'm not gonna write it all, but all I can say is that, these past weeks had been indescribable...

There were hard and bitter moments, and there were sweet moments too..

And most importantly, how things had worked itself out for me and my family miraculously..

So, all I wanna say from this valuable experience and lesson I've just learned,

No matter what happens in life, never ever give up hope, never ever give up trying, and never ever stop having faith in God's plan, and never ever stop believing that He will give nothing but the best for us.. 

He will give us nothing but the BEST!!!

"I'ts been rainy for days and days, thunderstorm hits violently, I asked God, make the rain stops, take the thunderstorm away... 

I asked and asked, but the rain never stops, it got worse instead, when I was about to give up hope, suddenly everything stops, the rain, the storm..

Then I realized why God gave me all those rainy days, it's because He wants me to have a sunny days and a rainbow too :)

It's soooooo beautiful....

So so so beautiful...

Thank you Allah!!

At first, I was worried bout her tantrum, and how to handle her, and I was worried bout myself, what if I got too tired and break down, so many things was inside my head, so much worries...... 

But now...

I don't care bout her tantrum anymore, I don't care if I break down, I don't care bout me not getting enough sleep or how tired I was for these past two days...

I just can't stand to look in this two year old eyes and feel her pain while she searched endlessly for her missing mommy...

Oh Allah, reduce her pain and let her smile again..

When the hardest hit...

It's been a while since my last update..
Autumn has started, leaves are scattered everywhere, i call this a messy season yet extremely beautiful :)
I'm currently in a difficult situation, where i feel trapped, helpless, and there's no way out.. Some may say i'm over reacting over a silly thing, but why shouldn't i be when this requires mental and physical strength to go through it...
These past few days, I've come to realize that most people are only willing to help but not sacrifice.. Then again, why should they sacrifice?
 And me? Always have to take the trouble for others without giving priorities to my own self, my own needs, my own capabilities, and strength... Others can simply run away when they think they are not capable, but I don't have that option... Wait, wait, maybe I do have that option, but there'll be hearts that hurt and when that happens, it is no longer an option for me... Coz I can't stand to see people hurts because of me, because of my unwillingness to sacrifice...
So here goes, may God give

Me and hubby the courage and strength to go through this...

Autumn cheer, by Fatini and Afeef (Afeef is the photographer)

Hip hip hooray!! 

:)

Number 1 for me...

For my mom and your mom... 

Number one for me!!!

Enjoy (",)

Fact of Life..

Today he played 'throwing tiny stones at each other' with his friends..

One friend accidently hit him on the eye, and he said it hurts soooo bad that he felt like fainting.. 

I asked if he cried???

He said 'No' and then he started to wonder...

He wondered, Why didn't he cry?? 

A few weeks ago when we were at a friend's house, he was playing with some friends about his age, and something happened I had no idea what, but Afeef cried soooo bad that I thought something really bad happened to him, like he fell and hit his head bad, or somebody hit him hard, anything, anything at all...

But after asking him over and over again, I found out that nothing actually happened to him, nobody hit him, and he was not hurt, but yet he cried so bad.. 

I've never seen him cry so bad for so long, and on that particular day, he did, and yet, for no reason at all!!!

And today, confused, he asked me this;

"Why did I cry soooo bad that day when nothing actually happened to me, and today someone hurt me soooo bad in the eye and I did not cry at all..??"

Hmmmmmmm... I knew the answer instantly heheh..

I told him,

"Itu lah namanye sakit hati... hehe... and sakit hati memang lebih sakit dari sakit yg lain-lain... "

His expression slowly changed and a triumph smile spread slowly over his face :)

He said excitedly that's the answer he's been looking for all along!!!!!

 He didn't know what it was that made him cry that day, what had hurt so bad...

because the thing that hurts was inside, in his HEART.. 

 I think today my son just learned another lesson and a fact of life..

Something can really hurt inside, and it is harder to heal...

Well my son, this is going to happen to you more and more as you go on...

That is Life, and Life's Like That...

ps: Maybe it's time to start teaching our children some inner martial arts heheh..